Hi MH - just want to say I'm glad you posted this. I really identify with the text-dissection too - I would have done the same thing. Glad you got that one line that feels safe - hold on to it.

MH,
You did really creative interpretation of her text It reminds me a bit how at school we would take a poem, split it into sections and try to figure out, what the author REALLY meant to say.
Even the last important line, that you didn't manage to get any other meaning then what it is - you just hope it is what she really means.
I do exactly the same things. And it hurts so much when we try snatch something precious away from ourselves.
I'm sure your T would never lie to you.
My T said, that he would never lie to me. So something in my head tries to turn it around, that he would basicly try not to tell the truth. Bullshit! This one I will believe.
We are all so creative, but not quite the way we should be.

Amazon, your post reminded me of things my T says to me. She frequently says she will never lie to me. Lately she's been calling bullshit on my defenses I use against her. It's funny the effect it has on me when she swears, because neither one of us do it that often, but when she does then it feels like she really means what she's saying.

About being creative, I suspect most famous and successful artistic people - whether it be writers or musicians or dancers or artists or designers - have suffered great pain in their lives which have become the inspiration and drive for their creative outlets.