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I read them to her and sarcastically asked, “Is that what you meant?” To which she in kind replied, ‘Those sound like emotions to me.”

sounds just like me and my T sometimes.also, when i'm going on and on about how horrible i am and i occasionally ask "that's pathetic, isn't it?"--he just says yes. sounds mean, kind of, but it's not. i need him to understand that i know it isn't true, but at the same time, it's what plays over and over in my head---and he does!!!i guess he's not so bad. Haha!

Hmm… and I thought that only my T possessed that wonderfully, skillful, sarcastic trait. (jk)

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i need him to understand that i know it isn't true, but at the same time, it's what plays over and over in my head---and he does!!!

I'm glad that he does! And I am glad that you FEEL that he does. That's very important.

That sounds like that whole left brain- right brain struggle I contend with too as I seek validation or permission to experience feelings I have never been allowed to feel before. To feel that it is ok to grieve about my childhood and that it doesn’t make me weak. That it’s ok to get angry and express those menacing feelings of injustice to my T knowing that she isn’t going to leave me or judge me or scold me.

There is a sense of security that develops with our T, despite the inherent struggles and our ill-perceptions, which gives us the ability to do that. So I imagine that developing a relationship with a T with opportunity to see him only once every so many weeks must add a whole new level of complexity to the inherently difficult relationship that it already is. This must be so hard, AJB.

Keep working toward your needs and making sure that you are heard.You deserve to be heard.
JM

Samy dude? how's it going for you? I know you're super-busy. I just... it seemed like you were having a rough time. /sadpanda

AJB, I also think it's cool that you can talk that way and your T can come back with a "yup, ridiculous", and that you feel like he's heard ya. I know that I need that sense of being heard when I'm having a rough time.

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HI,
Thanks for asking about us here. We is ok. We did have a bad times. There an inside guy who is new around if you get that. But mostly him is scared and big Scott is working with that one. HAHA we call him big Scott cuz there is another insider who is Scottie and is only 5 years old.
Samy

Samy,
I'm really glad that you guys get that the new guy is scared. I know when I'm scared, I can sometimes come across as pretty mean and angry trying to protect myself. It's really great that (Big) Scott is able to help him. Every time I think my life is complicated, I read one of your posts and realize I have NO idea Glad to hear you're doing better!

AG

HA! complicated eyh! well, ya know in real life most people don't know about us insiders. i were tellin me T i only have a few in real life friends who i can phone and meet in person and stuff. that's why kinda i like you guys here so much cuz you let ME be ME and I don't gotta pretend or hide or nothing. I suppose it's kinda freaky for some people to think of the body having lotsa people in it. And some people don't want to talk to noone but the host person. i guess them is scared but it do hurt. When we at school i not supposed to talk or nothing but be quiet so others can conertrate. I like you guys here
Samy

Samy,
I am glad that you can be you here. I like learning about you and the others and I don't find it scary at all. I am learning a lot from all of you and always look forward to reading any posts by the dude, whoever it may be.
JM

Samy,
I'm glad that you feel like you can be yourself here. And, like JM, I appreciate how open you've all been, I'm learning alot from you. I like you too.

AG