Blackbird big hugs to you. You say such nice things about me and that makes me feel good. Thank you!

Lamp- I don't think it's selfish of you to have felt good from the things I've sad! Not at all.

So this website has a system for email? I didn't know that. I was just going to give you my regular email. A lot of times the email client built into a forum cuts messages short... So here is my email I check very regularly.: caeti723@gmail.com

As for the breakup, yes, I am still waking up at the same time he does only in separate rooms and I am subconsciously watching the time for when he's off work. I am holding up ok. I actually asked him if he wanted to go for a bike ride on Thursday and he said yes... I was very shocked! Now for what to do to indicate that I want back with him... without being pressuring because if I am then Ill make the opposite of what I want happening-- pushing him away.

It's so sucky.

Thanks for sharing how you handle breakups, or don't handle them. I am the same way, I just can't bear em.

I don't have much of a relationship with my P or the other P. I do have a nice relationship with my T though, the only male I see and had a transference with. It goes well. Since I'm on medication I need to see her. That's the only reason why I go. heh.

I hope I feel less overwhelmed and consumed by heartache soon too.. thanks for the well wishes, hope to hear from you soon.

(sorry im in a rush today)

Hi there Caeti

You know the good thing about still living with your boyfriend is that you have the opportunity to talk to him, even if it’s pretty frosty. It certainly sounds as if he’s not cutting you dead or being really hostile towards you if he’s agreed to go on that bike ride. Yeah I agree if you try and push him, especially this early on in the piece, chances are you might only alienate him. Being friends sounds like a good way to go at the moment.

I’ve taken your email address, will write soon.