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Oh, LG. (((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))) I'm sorry the experience was so mirroring and triggering for you, but glad you have been able to connect with and release some of those feelings that have been shut away for so long. I wish I could be there with you right now. I had the same experience regarding my grandmother, who was like a mother to me, who died when I was 16. I am still hiding from mourning her. You are an incredibly strong woman and I'm sure your Dad was and is proud of you!

Thanks for sharing LG, that was very powerful!

I know a family who took me in for a month in summer once. The mother had cancer and died 2 weeks after I arrived. She left 3 children, 3(or 4), 8 and 10. In the car on the way to the funeral I cried my eyes out and they were in the car with me. I didn't cry because *I* was sad but I cried for the children. Only the little girl sometimes cried although I don't think she really realized what was going on.
The oldest girl just stared ahead and showed no emotion, I don't think I saw her cry once and I was with the family the entire time.
It broke my heart because I knew she was screaming inside.
I felt really silly because I was the only one who cried but I couldn't help it.
Whatever difficulties I have and have had with my parents, I cannot imagine the world without them.
I'm sorry you lost your father when you were so young, that must have been a nightmare!
But it's good that you can cry about it now. It is better late than never and the pain has got to come out.
I'm also sorry about your friend. I hope as this year progresses, you will have no more deaths to mourn!
Hugs dear LG!

((((LG))))

It's never to late to grieve. And what a powerful experience to witness your past self in the same situation. Hopefully that 16 year old will get there one day too, and I'm glad you finally unleashed the tears and allowed the grief to move through you.

Sorry to hear about your friend I know this has not been an easy weekend for you.

Thank you for sharing that LG. It was very moving. I'm so sorry for your loss and your friends' loss as well. It is good that the tears came and that you were able to allow yourself to grieve. ((((hugs))))

LG, I was really moved by reading this and I am pleased that you were finally able to grieve your own loss and that it was a healing expereince for you. I am however really sorry you had to experience both losses in the first place . Thank you for sharing this, this really gives me hope. (((LG)))

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