Ok, so I know that there was a thread about being embarrased about crying in public. Or something like that, sorry I can't remember where it was or who shared it.

So last night, I went to Starbucks without my kids and with my husband's blessing to go and spend some time journaling etc. I had to drop my son off at the church for his Awanas program so I knew that I'd have to go and get him at a certain time, but I figured at least I had an hour and 15 min to just chill with my laptop and write.

UNTIL... this guy walks in with his wife or girlfriend and they know the person sitting next to me and they ask me if I'd be willing to move farther down the bench... to accomodate their large party... of course the timing of this was TERRIBLE since I was already halfway down the page of my journal entry and had started to write about some upsetting stuff. I responded to the guy that I was in the middle of something and that I only had a short time away from my kids. Now mind you, I had a screaming toddler the better part of the afternoon, and so since i really was lacking personal space all afternoon the idea that I had to move and sit close enough to some other people who could see what I was writing, really upset me. He responded that they did have a big group coming and I responded that Maybe they should have gone to a bigger starbucks, this one is the smallest in my town. He asked me, "What's that, I didn't hear you?" like he wasready to start a fight with me. I responded, nevermind, you didn't really need to hear it anyway! UGH!!! I left 5 min later anticipating that their big group would just frustrate me all the more, so I left and then cried the ENTIRE drive home, GRRRRRR

Tonight is my session with T, and I did finish my journal and added all this info... so we'll see what she has to say about it. I'm ever curious as to what she'll say. Had a few minutes so I thought I'd share with you all too!

I'm sorry the visit to Starbucks was so upsetting. I couldn't deal with that many people in my space either.

I hope your session goes well!

I am sorry you experienced this. I know how awful it can feel to be so easily set off by a stranger and for them to not have empathy for you. I've had moments like this where later I felt so embarrassed for losing my cool and felt badly for taking it out on a stranger, even if it seemed that they were asking for it at the time.

I hope you were able to find a moment of peace later after you left.