november is a month of travel, holidays, and absence. instead of about 11 hours of therapy time between group and one to one, i am working with six hours. i notice the difference. i miss everyone there because you get it. i don't have to explain and you don't ask why. You never fix. i am sad and crying and listening to sad music. bring on the sad, i can feel it and the sad is good for me to feel

i really wanted to connect to my group tonight and when i got there, it was cancelled due to sickness and i understand, i really understand and i can feel how much i depend and trust and love

gee, i miss my t

(((louba)))

I know the holidays can be hard enough on their own, and the gaps they create in accessing one's normal support system just adds to the stress. I was *not* a happy camper during my two week break from therapy due to the Thanksgiving!

Take gentle care of yourself. All the best,
Heldincompassion

quote:

i really wanted to connect to my group tonight and when i got there, it was cancelled due to sickness and i understand, i really understand and i can feel how much i depend and trust and love

Louba,
I am sorry for the gaps in care that you are experiencing, they are always tough to get through, especially last minute cancellations. I am very impressed though by your ability to recognize that the gaps are due to schedules and sickness but don't say anything about you. I also think the quote above is such a wonderful sign of health. That you can acknowledge your need for the connection and love of your group and miss it when it is not available is such a huge thing. I struggled so long to recognize, let alone admit, my needs, that this really struck me. I hope the time goes quickly until you can reconnect.

AG

i feel affirmed - risky to write, hmmphf

i had an hour today and we talked about many feelings and transference and dissociation and judgments internalised and then t asked how i felt about her. screeeech - full stop.

held rose quartz on monday at group, dropped it with a clang/clunk and it went underneath the bookcase. Got down on my hands and knees at break time to find it. Held it during the next hour. heart chakra