Hi all,

I just wanted to apologize for not being very present on the forum for the past several weeks. Things have been really, really busy because of many things (mostly classes). I don't know how often I'll be able to post, but I normally try to check in from time to time.

Thank you all for being you. You're all wonderful.

(((kashley))) You are wonderful too! Thanks for checking in. You're missed, but totally understand about being busy and looking forward to when you have some down time for yourself!

Hugs kashley,
Take care of you in amongst all your work

starfishy

Hi Kashley,

Nice to see you! Thanks for giving us an update. Hope things are well.

xoxo

Liese

((((Kashley)))

Hope classes are settling down a little...!

((hugs)) Thank you all. Still have lots to do, but I'll have more breathers over the weekend to check in here. But, I'm going through a bit of a rough patch in therapy at the moment (content wise), so I still may not post much because it can just get too triggering.

((more hugs))

(((((( Kashley )))))))

Hope you are looking after yourself and not getting too overwhelmed with everything going on for you.

LL

Take care of yourself, Kashley...I hope that you will soon be able to post without the triggering, but if not, take all the time you need.

Big hugs,

BB

Had a minute to come around here, so I wanted to thank you guys. (((Echoes))) (((Lampers))) (((Beebs)))

Just found out that my dad will be undergoing a triple bypass next week. Definitely has me in an even more confusing and conflicted place than before (very long story short, it's things relating to him that have me in a bit of a spot already). I really don't know what to think about everything right now..is that bad?

(((kashley)))

I'm sorry about your dad and I know it must be stirring up a lot of confusion and conflict. I think it is totally normal to not know what to think and feel in this circumstance. Sending lots of (((hugs))) and prayers for peace and comfort and the knowledge that you are dearly beloved.

I'm sorry too about your dad. And I agree with Yaku that it's perfectly normal not to know what to think or how to sort through your conflicting feelings at a time like this. Perhaps the best thing you can do is put your head down and try NOT to sort any of it out. It depends if you have to make decisions about what to do (such as, whether to visit him or not, that sort of thing...) I hope you are able to call on lots of support to get you through.

And you can always post here for support too (though of course you know that

((((( Kashley )))))

LL

I'm sorry to hear about your Dad...it must be awful to not know quite what you are feeling about it all. I would think it would be totally normal to have any range of emotions, including, but not limited to...relief, sadness, anger at him, guilt at not being "sad enough" etc., and etc. Just know that you cannot help what you feel...and what you feel is not a reflection of how good you are...it is just that- emotion or lack therof, and not much you can do to control it, so let it pass through and try, not to judge yourself.

Big hugs, and I hope so much that somehow you will find peace in all of this...

hugs,

Beebs

Thank you so much to you all...

I nearly had to cancel my session this week due to things related to my dad's surgery but was able to keep it. I actually had to call my T back and ask for the original session because I'd already rescheduled. Thank goodness I could keep this week's instead of having to wait more than a week, because as soon as I hung up the phone from my T after rescheduling (I couldn't manage to tell her anything - I just pretended it was a 'pesky' scheduling conflict ), I realized I wasn't okay and that I really needed to talk to her about all of this. I didn't mention anything in the second call either, of course, but at least I only have to wait until Friday now instead of next Thursday.

Thank you guys for the support. Even though I objectively know it's okay to feel whatever (or not feel at all), I still feel so incredibly guilty for any feeling I have or any feeling that I don't have. I'm trying not to dwell on it because it will just lead to bad things. Luckily, I have enough to distract myself with that it's been okay.

Anyway, thanks again - hopefully I can work through some of this with T...