On Friday my parents decided they were getting a divorce (again!) I guess this time they are serious. The thing is I’m not earning money right now because I started my own business counting on the fact that I have two parents who can easily support me financially until I start making money. Well, that’s gone. I also don’t know where I’m going to live or work once my parents separate (live with my mom and sister in a new place? Move back to my house? Move in with boyfriend? Live by myself? Will I even be able to find a job??) which is the ultimate anxiety….

So all that happened over the weekend, and then I go to therapy this morning and T says “First of all, before we start, we’re going to be moving….” And he hands me a sheet of paper announcing that the counseling group will be moving. MOVINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And not only moving but moving to a part of the city that I hate!!!!!!!!!!!! No more gorgeous view of the water and mountains out the window??????????? The building that he’s in right now is right in the middle of the city… it’s just up the hill from the water, I can walk to starbucks before my appointment, AND best of all LUSH is only about a block away!!!!! I need stability, and to know that no matter where I decide to live, my T will still be there…. BUT I GUESS NOT!

SUCH BAD TIMING!!!!!!!! When he gave me the piece of paper I just took it and didn’t say anything about it the rest of the session. I can’t handle my T moving, my parents divorcing, and my life being turned upside down all at the same time.

Ok, theres more…. I just looked at the piece of paper and the building is called “C***** Medical Tower”. I just looked it up and it’s a medical building… complete with a pharmacy and doctors and plastic surgeons. I cant even describe the amount of anxiety. Plus I looked it up on google maps and its literally right up the street from the huge main hospital in the city. I would never have even gone to see my T in the first place if he was in this building two years ago.

Change can be so scary, Mac. I can imagine there is a lot of uncertainty and fear surrounding your parents divorce. It sounds as though the rug has been ripped out from under you.

Have you discussed your concerns about where you will live with your parents?

LG, Thanks for understand... I dont talk to my dad, and I've talked to my mom but she keeps saying she doesnt know whats going to happen. She said that shes trying to think of a way that I could live with her and my sister and she could support us without me having to get a paying job, but i dont think that will be possible.

Mac,

I'm so sorry. So much change all at once. No wonder the news of your T moving offices hit you so hard. For what it's worth, I would be very unsettled if my T moved locations as well and I'm not dealing with a change in my living and working circumstances on top of that. I hope that the unknown becomes known to you soon and you can start to settle into a new normal. (((hugs)))

Thanks STRM, I know it's totally normal to be feeling like this.
I looked up more about the area and it's not that bad i guess... there is a nice bakery where I could grab a tea before our session just around the corner.