She T may not be leaving after all.


Not Getting too hopeful though that way i can protect myself.

Emerald, You must tell us more! We will try too hold you down so you don't get your hopes up.

well she didnt go into details of why but she said that she might not be leaving after all. She said that if she does leave then it isnt going to happen quickly.
She told me not to worry about it now which is not really a good thing to say to someone with anxiety.

I am not getting hopful so i can protect myself because she has a tendency to say things and then change her mind or go back on what she said.
like when she said she had no intention of leaving me but she then told me of plans to leave.

Anyway things are going ok but very, very, confusing.

Therapy is going very slowly at the moment because of this issue. My therapist says its ok for it to go slowly that iv been through enough lately and i deserve a break from hard times.

Yes, you DO deserve a break from that Em!

She told you not to worry about her leaving or not? I am glad you can laugh at the irony. Sometimes our T's humaness can't help but shine through. "Yeah ok T. It's not like I have anxiety issues or anything."

It must be very frustrating when she changes her mind like that and I understand your defensivenes so you don't get hurt anymore. I feel it too. I think your T is right to say that it is ok to go slowly right now. A nice, slow, calm can be very soothing to an over activated nervous system. Slow is usually better for the therapeutic process anyway.

Hang in there!

JM

Totally agree! Thanks for your reply