Hi Rebuilding,
Welcome to the forums! I'm really glad that reading here has helped you decide how to handle your feelings and given you the courage to speak about them to your T. I remember having all the same fears about speaking up to my T (who at the time my husband and I were seeing for marital counseling, he was actually my husband's T originally.) He didn't do any of what I was worried about. Actually he was very understanding and accepting of my feelings and very glad that I had opened up about them.

Therapy should be a safe place where you can speak about anything you're feeling, including your feelings for your T. I hope it goes really well, whatever you can manage to say. Be patient with yourself if you can't get it all said at once, this can be scary stuff. Looking forward to hearing how it goes.

AG