Hi you guys

I have noticed that sometimes (often really) I comment on a post or I make a new post myself and I feel that I am in the flow of it when the next day I am suddenly paralized and feel I can't even open the post up again. I mean it feels like a challenge to read the replies etc. But then if I see that I was the last one to post and it stays that way I think 'I killed the thread'. =/ Talk about insecure. This stuff is so difficult.

Anyway do you find yourself experiencing any of that on this discussion forum?
Thanks Jo

Yes...I always feel as if the number of threads with me as the last post indicates I am a thread-killer. I have even accused myself of being a forum-killer before, because of it.

You are not alone with this, I go through phases where I feel able to post quite happily on threads and then times when I just don't feel I can go back to it for whatever reason. I also feel insecure about seeing my name and thinking that I have killed a thread so you are most defintely not on your own.

Butterfly

Whew! Thanks for your replies on this. I had a feeling I wasn't alone as this therapy stuff is so difficult. And sometimes you don't realize you were triggered or whatever until long after the fact.

Totally understand. I think I tend to feel a huge sense of inadequacy in addition to the things you all mentioned. It's had me posting a lot less the past few months, but lately I'm trying to force myself to post something to try and work through it. Like right now!

Draggers Yeah but when you're in a long line of threads that ended with you it leaves you scratching yer head. lol Thanks for noticing my new avatar. I am trying them out til I settle on one.

Hi Kashley thanks for commenting here. That's true too. I worry that I may seriously offend someone or trigger them or simply anger them too. Good point to bring up. I am glad you are risking again in here and posting. You seem like a very kind and understanding person. I hope you keep coming back.

Jo

Hi, Jo and welcome...I am not sure if I have responded to you on here or not, but I really relate to waht you write here- One of my problems is that I get very spacy and forgetful and can't remember where stuff and who said what and sometimes, even if I wrote back or not- was on here. I easily get overwhelmed by the numbner of threads and posters and can run away from responding for that reason, fear of hurting people, sensory overload-...arg, gosh. It's hard. I think you responded to me really kindly somewhere, and I meant to go back and see if I did, but I got sidetracked by my T angst and my son's birthday, and now I can't find where it was. I am sorry! but I didn't reply immediately because I was scared that if I replied on that thread again and then not on other ones that I would hurt or anger people, since I am posting so much on only my own thread right now and not offering much support elsewhere. yarg. haha- so you see, there you have it...you are not alone.

It is really nice to meet you, and I hope you won't feel too weird about it after awhile. when I first started posting, the same happened, I was often last with no responses after me- I think it is just shyness and those things are always about other poeple and where they are at what they are doing, not about you- you are lovely!

hug,

BB

Jo,

Yes, like BB said sometimes I can get spacey or distracted and forget where a thread is that I meant to come back to.

I totally get a weird feeling when my name is the last on a thread and start to wonder if I'm a thread killer. For sure.

Hey BB No worries about any threads or responding on my behalf. I mean I have gotten the sentiment from you that you are thinking of me and care how I am doing. So individual responses are nice but certainly not necessary and I do the same thing too. I can't find threads etc and forget where a comment is that I meant to go back to. I did that with strummergirl (Is that her name?) She said something really nice and now i can't find it to respond. Then I don't really like doing a lot of private messaging either as I know not everyone checks them. (Especially psychlady! Argh I wanna get into that sensitive issues forum and she hasn't answered my request)

STRM yep i totally get what you are saying. Heck you don't even have to be spacy to get lost on these boards. Maybe there are too many rooms or something. All I know is people are pretty nice here and I know everyone means well and means to get back but can't always do it.

Jo