Dear AG,

DF has just beautifully beaten me to it!!

Of course, no sorries were needed from you, I am just glad that we are all able to say what we think and check out that we are all ok in an adult way. That's so important for us all, especially as for a lot of us we never had that opportunity when we were smaller - I am inspired how great communicators we all have become despite all that

starfish

Thank you both so much for your gentleness and kindness, I so appreciate it.

Smiley, I'm sorry for hi-jacking your thread! I also hope you're feeling better today.

What do I say to all of you? I am so touched by all of your responses. Thank you so much for reaching out and sharing your own personal experiences, it really does help.
I did get a response from my T and I kind of said the same thing to my T that you, DF, suggested. Writing a little at a time. I do get frustrated and upset so if I just write a couple of sentences at a time maybe I can actually write more.
((BB)) - you're so cute! Thanks for the hug I could feel it way over here. The grandkids are a ray of sunshine in my life. I try to be to them as my grandmother was to me. Never ending love at all times and have fun with them. It keeps me focused to a certain degree.
((STRM)) Wow, so much to understand. Thank you for that. I basically do get it, just can't deal with it I guess.
Thanks Janedoe!(())
Echo - thank you too! I haven't written everyone off, but I hold them pretty far out there.
AG - You hit alot of things here dead on. A bit scary really seeing it in black and white. You have such a way with words.

I have alot of re-reading to do. Again I want to say thank you. I have alot on my mind at the moment and I'm feeling a bit foggy.

Smiley