STRM thanks so much for sharing that - yes it’s really helpful to get an insight into how other people’s therapy works and it’s also really positive to read about a therapist who really knows what she is doing.

I’m so glad you feel a bit of resolution here, and that little Kate is being heard and understood and comforted.

I hope you can get even more of her painful experience integrated next session.

(((( STRM ))))

LL

Thank you AG, TN and LL. Thanks for reading too MLC, not sure if we've formally met yet (forgive me if I've forgotten...it happens to me quite a bit!)

I am feeling better today, especially compared to over the weekend and when I went in yesterday.

I am very thankful for my T. Her knowledge, patience, caring, presence and connection. I don't know where I'd be without her.

I sent her a debrief from session yesterday. I often do that and mention what worked really well, what didn't work etc. I was thanking her for being so available lately, but couldn't think how to say what I wanted to say so I told her that I was reminded of some of the lyrics from Push by Sarah McLachlan. These in particular:
“You've seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am...And when I fall you offer me a softer place to land. You stay the course, you hold the line, you keep it all together. There are times I can't decide, when I can't tell up from down. You make me feel less crazy, when otherwise I'd drown. But you pick me up & brush me off, and tell me I'm OK. Sometimes that's just what we need to get us through the day.”

I'm late to this, STRM, but I wanted to offer my support. Your T sounds extremely attuned to you and your needs. What you and Little Kate are going through sounds so difficult, and I'm glad you've got someone like her to remind you that you're safe now.

I'm always awkward thanking Ts for the support they give to us. Those lyrics are a beautiful expression of feelings that I've experienced in therapy. So thanks for sharing them here.

I hope that today goes well.

STRM

I am sorry that I'm late too, was thinking about how you'd got on though.

Those intense feelings and memories are so hard, STRM I am glad that your T was able to keep you so safe through all that pain and hurt. That feeling of being grown up yet feeling as if the horrors are still happening is a dreadful one, and can feel so scary and confusing. It happens regularly to me when I have flashacks, and I have a horrible sense of not knowing to which world I now belong. I am glad that T was able to hold little kate through all of that re-experiencing and that more importantly the anxiety and images have gone. STRM that is an incredible achievement and I do so hope that that's where they stay.

starfish