Happy Girl-Yes, my T can act very parental at times. I think she was doing that. My T's office just put up a new website with all the T's credentials, backgrounds and methodologies. I see T's background work is in sexual trauma, substance abuse families and she has a special interest in working with teens. The website says she forms a wonderful therapeutic relationship. A lot of the time she seems to be a Humanistic type of therapist. Not all the time though. I do think she seemed angry...Read More...

Little Me- Just keep sharing. you are safe here. We all have our shit... our secrets. Try to keep it together for your girls too. How old are they? do they live with you? do they know... understand what you are going through. Hang on and just keep posting. I dont know cutting, but I do know suffering to release pain. Many here can relate to your situation. Your former T is a manipulator... keep looking for the good T you deserve. you made a wase choice to get away from manipulative taxi T.Read More...

Liese, It sounds as though it is all resolved by now but I just wanted to say that when I read your post about this, I didn't think he was ignoring you. Maybe he just wants you to ask for what you want. Glad it got sorted out and hopefully this will make your relationship with him more solidified and secure.Read More...

I used to find it excrutiating to admit that I missed him. But now I say all the time things like "Oh it was so bad trying to sleep last night as I was missing you so much." or "I just ached to see you, I wanted to hear your voice and see you .". "I find the gap between seeing you too long. It hurts in my heart." "I ache in my heart when I don't see you." and I admit to him how little those feelings feel, like I am a very small child. I have also told him that sometimes I have to imagine...Read More...

number 9 - I did not dare to talk about this. I was - to be honest - rather preoccupied with other topics during my session and just could not find a moment where it would not seem a strange diversion. I shall ask him over the phone. It is easier.Read More...

I think it's kind of ironic that even though my dad was the one who passed, I long for a female mother figure in my life. Despite the disease, I was a complete and total Daddy's Girl. My mom did give me love and attention, but I just so happened to be closer to my dad. When he died, it was like I lost a huge part of my heart and soul. I tried to connect with my mom, but it's very different than the relationship I had with my dad. Now that my mom is remarried and even though I get along...Read More...

((((BB)))) I'm so oblivious that I didn't even notice those pictures. Good thing you saw them. I just went back to the article and can't believe I didn't notice them. What have I learned to block out? So glad to be able to write to you because I wanted to tell you how touched I was by your account up above and how much that article helped you. Glad you had a good session with Cowboy T! Hugs, Liese P.S. My sincerest apologies to anyone and everyone that was triggered by the pictures. I got...Read More...

Does this movie get any better??? You are incredible for sitting in the chair - I thought it would take AGES for you to do it - amazing that you could do it so quickly. I don't think I would have been so brave. I think he wore your favourite sweater for a reason - he knew you liked it and was trying to make you feel comfortable. My T spoke of attachment also last week along similar lines. That when you have long term clients you can't help have an attachment to them and you naturally share...Read More...

She increased my WB XL to 450 and she said she agreed more with me than with my T, that I need a better handle on my emotions. I mean, I could just be cooking dinner and my 7 year old daughter comes over to me to ask a question and I start crying.Read More...

Hey JD I said the other day and after reading this I repeat it - I think Andrew is having serious PTSD or after effects or a mental breakdown after the incident that happened. I actually think that in some bizarre way - he is desperately asking for help from your T for his own issues but can't bring himself to ask directly. I think your T should recommend a few names to him and see if that helps Andrew. As far as his behaviour etc goes - too much has happened JD - just get out of there. Bad...Read More...

I bought a book about therapy not working: Shouldn't I Be Feeling Better by Now Clients Views of Therapy edited by Yvonee Bates I had two therapists seriously damage me so I was interested in the real life stories in this book.Read More...

Thanks. I will ask about that.Read More...

Hi HIC, I attended the church my first T went to, because I was trying them out, and she said she didn't mind. I found it was not quite my sort of church and eventually started attending another. I actually quite liked seeing her at the church - she often played the organ - but I think I felt quite secure around her and knew that I could see her during the week and so it was not an issue in choosing a church. I think it is sound that you go and check that church out and also see how you feel...Read More...

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Forgetmenot, Yeah it was with H. Timely comment you made about the realization of many things coming...so much is happening...I got to go off to journal it all down.Read More...

Thanks Ninn for your support. I'm sorry your meds are so difficult for you and I hope in time they come to help you. Not sure why your T allows those conversations to die. Maybe you shouldn't let them die and tell her you still need to talk about those things. I think an experienced T should understand how changing their office would impact a patient and be ready to talk about it and hear the patient's feelings. Hang in there with the meds. Thinking of you. TNRead More...

Total guilt all the time about a lot of things! I adopted my daughter and she has reactive attachment disorder. I have my own attachment problems. I wonder so often if I shouldn't have adopted her and maybe she could have gone to a more normal family. I also have a psychopathic dad and brother who play games and hurt me emotionally all the time. My daughter certainly doesn't need that.Read More...

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And another thing....the last session, when I found a babysitter to watch my son and went alone, I could tell she was annoyed that I didn't bring him. She was very direct with me, maybe because she was mad at me. BUT strangely enough, I felt better that she said a few things about my complaining about my parents. Basically, that complaining doesn't help. That was good. That happened when I was ALONE with her. What was bad was that she didn't respect the fact that I am uncomfortable bringing...Read More...

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I like MoodReporter. You input daily and if you turn it sideways, it shows you a cool graph of your moods. Best used for mood and anxiety disorders.Read More...

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My New Years resolution is that by next January 1st I will not need to make a New Years resolution because I'll be consistently working on the things that I need to focus on to get better. Haha. Um, New Years resolutions don't really work for me, principally because I have a motivation problem and have had since I was 15. I guess my New Years resolution could be to be more motivated Lol. I just want to get better. That's all. The rest will follow.Read More...

Argh!!! This is why I hate therapy!! So I emailed her today to apologise and say that if she can't change the time, that's fine and I'll assume it's still at the time we agreed and she replies STRAIGHT AWAY to say let's meet at the time agreed and "see if we can sort all this out". It's only this week that I've double booked myself and the other thing I booked weeks ago so should really take precedence but that isn't really the done thing in therapy is it? Anyway, I've reacted by going into...Read More...

Hey FMN Glad you liked it. Oh yeah for me too - CBT would've been just papering over the cracks - and poor little me would've been left all lonely inside still. As painful as this process is, it's defo the only way forward for me. It's nice to meet others who are there too as it's such a different experience/relationship. hugs xRead More...