Jane, I know that in my case the longing to be hugged and held safely, in a completely non-sexual way, has been just below the surface for about half of my therapy. My T officially said no to physical contact when we started doing the interviewing. I told him that means most likely no access to young ones, because that's where they're at. He said he would pray about that, so who knows, maybe at least a pat on the shoulder or something sometime in the future. Anyway, I think if you have been...Read More...

Jane, I felt sad reading your post. I'm feeling the same way right now. I reached the goal I had when I went into therapy (simply, 'to stop crying'), but it seems that I "should" have more goals....why do I feel this way, because of my T's judgements about my life, some of which I agree with. I have new goals, therefore, that developed through this past year of therapy. I feel like I can't achieve them, though, so I feel like therapy is over for me. My T said she hasn't given up on me,...Read More...

Hi Sea-Green, I agree with LadyGrey that these feelings are normal and worth exploring with your T. I too have had 'irrational anger' toward my T (like getting angry she emailed me from her iphone or getting angry at her for having a cup of coffe during our session!!)...sometimes I bring it up with her and explore it and this has helped immensely to 'normalize' my feelings and/or help me judge my feelings less....I also think that if you switched to a female T that these issues (anger,etc)...Read More...

how are ya doing there, JD?? Thinking of you. Hope you are well. Sorry if I missed stuff. I am a bit disjointed on the forum lately. how are things with your T?Read More...

I'm 34, never had a relationship, haven't even had a date for about 8 years. I guess all of my stuff has prevented me from meeting someone. I don't feel ready to date but my T is all for it, I guess if I wait until I'm ready I never will. I've recently signed up to an online dating site and I'm also stuggling with all the endless questions! Everytime I think I'm getting there and I could start to meet people things get bad and I think well how can I meet someone when I'm miserable and how do...Read More...

Hi GG... you are not alone we are here to listen to you. Liese does make some good points. Sometimes taking any little step will lead to something really good that will brighten your mood. I realize holidays are really rough. And I do understand that being alone can hurt a lot. Maybe you can wander the mall (lots of good sales right now) and distract yourself for a little while. Make yourself something good to eat and watch a silly movie. Right now I'm off to clean bathrooms. Lots of fun.Read More...

Thanks so much STRM, Beebs, FOT, Ninn and LG for your support. Just to be clear ... July 1st was the beginning of the end.... not the day he actually abandoned me, although he did abandon me in an emotional and therepeutic sense. He would never after that day do therapy with me. I tried. I really tried. I brought things in, I wrote him a letter expressing my confidence in him and our relationship to finish what I started in therapy, I read to him from books. I tried everything I could think...Read More...

That is really interesting. Thanks for posting R2G!Read More...

Hey Morgs...right back atcha.. love you, BeebsRead More...

Thanks for the suggestion LG. I find it so much easier to drink my calories rather than eat them, but according to my doctor, that isn't good enough. I had 3 smoothies today - nearly 40 grams of protein between the three, and enough calories, I hope, to balance the 20 minute workout I did before dinner. Sigh.... It's just been one of those days where NOTHING feels right, I'm so glad it's just about over.Read More...

I disasociate but I would have no idea on naming anything. I am not DID. I am not certain I would even understand what I was naming. Good luck with it.Read More...

PF, I witnessed a fatal accident on the highway a few weeks ago and pulled over to talk to the cops. It was very upsetting. This car was literally ran off the road by another car right in front of me. It was scary and so surreal at the same time. I kept thinking, "that could have easily have been me!" and then there was also a part of me that felt guilty that it was not me, because the girl who did die was only in her early 20s...and I felt that she probably had a lot more to live for than...Read More...

Thank you for your response Yaku. I really appreciate your thoughts on this. I agree with you that there is absolutely nothing wrong with being attached and it can be a healthy and healing experience and I admire therapists that can embrace the attachment in order to help the client. My old T knew how strongly I felt about her as I would tell her in my own way but I guess we never really discussed it anymore than just to acknowledge it. I don’t plan on ignoring the feelings I have as I know...Read More...

((((( Flutterby )))) thanks! Hm I was just rereading my little list and I came across a contradiction - which seems to have opened up a bit of a can of worms for me. It's where I'm going on about T never assuming s/he knows more than the client about anything. When I wrote that I meant it, but now I realize that I ALSO expect a T to definitely know more about a whole lot of things than I do, especially to do with feelings and how therapy works and stuff about me that I'm not aware of but is...Read More...

incognito Well done you! I am really poud of what you achieved and your ability to turn that situation around so beautifully. starfishyRead More...

Lol TN you're the furthest from crazy that I can think of You got a good point there, that the POOF fear may very well be getting in the way of my attaching. I guess the sad bit is that I don't know what it's like to feel attached, and actually have no desire whatsoever to do so I sort of see it like, getting all the emotional things I need, without my having to GIVE anything in exchange (having spent my life feeling like I'm doing all the giving and getting bugger all in return, long...Read More...

For me, DV and therapy go hand in hand. All my issues for why I am in therapy are related to my abusive relationship with my husband. It would work well for me to have a subforum.Read More...

Hi TN Just to chime in with my thanks for sharing your sessions, they are always honest and useful to read especially for us therapy newbies ThanksRead More...

Thanks for the hugs Liese. I should explain more about today to give you more info. My T did respond to my voicemail with an email this morning addressing some of what I said and telling me he hoped I reconsidered coming in tomorrow for my session. I was upset and called him and asked him to call me and then I wrote him a long email explaining why I was so angry. He called me back at lunchtime and we spoke for 7-8 min. That conversation was difficult. He told me he is willing to talk about...Read More...

[quote]1.) If you could be a celebrity for a month, who would you be? Don't know about this one 2.) What is your favorite beverage? Water doesn't count.(did we have that question already?) Dr. Pepper, lemonade, iced chai 3.) What was the last movie you watched? Last song you listened to? Movie - Mrs. Doubtfire, (why-I don;t know), Song - Beautiful Mess by Jason Mraz 4.) Is there a movie you know the lines to? Tommy Boy, Wizard of Oz 5.) Are you pierced or do you have tattoos? 5 pierced in...Read More...

TN, I enjoyed you post, and agree with your T. I haven't been allowing the attachment. My T has been trying to help me in that regard, I think, but like she said, I detach and withdraw from fear that it's not okay. I often times think that I am projecting my discomfort about the attachment onto her, when in reality she has dealt with attachment clients and helped them work through it, so I know she isn't afraid of it. I just wish she were as open and skilled at expressing her...Read More...

Beebs.... It's okay. I appreciate your hugs. I'm sorry you are missing your T so much and I understand how much it hurts right now. It does get better with time... lots of time and some guidance and support. TNRead More...

((DF)) Thanks for sharing your dream...I think the way it ended is really meaningful, especially since it's different than the norm. I think it shows how much strength you've gained through all of this and a kind of inner knowledge that you can handle this trip. It may seem like it would hurt either way (setting the boundaries or not) but what if the more peaceful ending to your dream is *because* of you setting the boundaries with your parents? It hurts, but you are making yourself safer.Read More...

((((MH))))) Thinking of you. Everything okay?Read More...

((((INCOGNITO))))) Where are you? Everything okay?Read More...