well i will definitely be checking those videos out, cat! pets really are inspiratonal. such strength of character they have. i bet so much of that is being uninhibited by what others say or think. the human brain really is both a blessing and a curse. let us all enjoy the innocence and honestly of our pets.Read More...

dear RabbitEars quote: take care of your wants and needs, RT. if you derive pleasure from it, it's worth it. also, it seems to me there has never been a lack of contributions on your morning peeps threads. this place is kind of like therapy this way ... leaves you lots of room to explore things about yourself (you just have to get your head to allow it). be easy on yourself and don't worry so much what others think (easier said than done, i know). take heed.Read More...

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I wonder if our love for T depends on what stage we were wounded. Mine was from the moment of conception so I'm suck at a very early level. I'm desperate for T to be the 'good breast'. I want to take her into my mouth for oral satisfaction.Read More...

thank you for starting this post turtle and everyone who replied. i can relate too... i think for me its feeling overwhelmed and like i dont deserve all the nice replies... i have found though that time and practice does help! i used to be a lot 'shyer' and the feeling returns if i've been away for a while, but also i have been reminded time and time again of the feeling of support on this forum! i hope it gets easier for all of us! puppetRead More...

1. Does your T yawn in your therapy? Thoughts? Yes, but she does her best to hide them. It doesn't bother me though. 2. Does your T admit when they are tired? Thoughts? Yup. At first it bothered me but not so much anymore. 3. Does your T act different at different times of the day? Definitely! She's more engaged in the mornings and maybe like the hour after lunch. Towards the late afternoon is when she starts to hit her dip lol. I've had my appts with her at all hours lol. I've also told her...Read More...

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Hi April, I don't know how your universities work - do you choose your program at the beginning and there is no opportunity to change? I changed my major (area of study) several times, and I think that was good - how many people truly know what they want when they are so young? Could you start over? A year sounds like a long time, but not compared to your whole life. Could you do what we call a "double major" - sort of what your friend is recommending, complete the management course and at...Read More...

Hi River, I feel bad for even saying this because it probably just shows how cut off from people and un empathic I am, I don't mean this is a mean "get over it" way at all - it is so great that you have such a strong attachment to/relationship with your T, I know how important it is, I struggle with getting there probably because afraid it would end, which is exactly your issue. I've had to move around the country a lot and sometimes it has been very hard leaving a T, but nothing like what...Read More...

HIC (such a cute abbreviation, my dog is 2 and often gets what I call"puppy hiccups"!) You are onto something important here. Maybe ask your T a little about it if you can, because I recently learned how important a healthy, secure attachment between a mom and baby is for a baby, so your T might help you to do what you are doing even better! As I understand it, kids are looking for more than eye contact, they are looking to you to feel understood, when they are frustrated you probably mimic...Read More...

((daggers)) that was powerful to read! I hope to get there one day and be truly thankful for the life I've been given. There's a lot of wisdom in your words! Thank you for themRead More...

Thank you for your answers! So I have done it. I knew I was allowed to do it, we had discussed it before I left, and we had decided how and how often, but I still felt it was intruding, so I indeed something as meaningless as just "hi", but she answered, and... so she's still there. (and it feels sooo reassuring. It's stupid, but... great. I am not abandoned/lost, then.) Thank you for your support.Read More...

Whatever word or gesture that indicates he is temporarily/selectively deaf. Thats the time I ask if he is having (another) TIA~ Mini stroke.Read More...

I ended up crying and being able to express myself... my T for the first time said 'You look just miserable'. (Thanks, man!) I was a quivering mess... by the time I got to the couch. Thank you guys for commiserating with me. I do spend sooo much time intellectualizing, especially out of therapy that it's so hard. Plus, I feel pushed away right now and scared of some changes coming up. I understand about the clock thing, too - I start trying to get better very fast. The times I have the most...Read More...

L2F...amazing words...so true. When someone speaks of their experience and you can feel what they are conveying...powerful. CD...thank you...I try to be persistent...but sometimes I lose heart... RT: Sending you hugs...for the journey... T.Read More...

(((TAS))) yes, some of the same issues come up whether male or female. but, one thing at a time. because a female T will most likely bring up male issues as well. it really is weird shit. :P one thing at a time. too overwhelming otherwise. all that stuff is wierd but inconsequential. it must be hard not to think about it, though. my best advise would be to talk with your T about the similarities if you haven't already. it was a semi-formal good-bye. it sucked to say the least. one of the...Read More...

Closed Doors Thank you. It takes my breathe away... that is how painful it is...but I can't give up...I have too much on the line...Read More...

(((Little Me))) would you consider recording the session in case you do dissociate and can't remember much? i taped quite a lot of my sessions and i really treasure those recordings, and pick up new things each time i listen. my recorder cost about $30 ... not a bad investment. i'm making dinner so need to go, i just wanted to touch base with you and tell you to stick around if it helps and let us know where you're at in your journey. take careRead More...

because maybe from personal experience you know how important the role of father is. maybe you didn't realize it when you were 21 or 17, but as you get older you start to think about these things and realize their utmost importance, and you don't want your kids to suffer the same heart-ache you currently do. just a guess.Read More...

Morning Peeps! Woke up with a major stomach ache this morning. Not like nausea - huge pain across my abdomen. That's never happened to me before. I thought, Oh shit! I have my session (The Session) with T today and I am going to feel too badly to get through it. So, I rummaged through the refrigerator and found some Mylanta that expired in 2009 and took a few swigs of that. Then I stood at the refrigerator door and wondered, Do I pitch it or put it back in the fridge? What the heck! Back in...Read More...

yes the brackets are a cyber hug T is therapist, P is pyschologist or psychiatrist, DH is dear husband IDK is i don't know FWIW for what it's worth WTH what the hell FOO family of origin DD can be dear daughter or dissociative disorder ED is eating disorder SI is self injury HOpe this helps you orient your way around a bitRead More...

No One right now...if ever. Never completely let my guard down w/anyone. Don't know my new T's @ home yet. I'm sure that'll take awhileRead More...

Athenacus, if i'm not a creeper then you're not pathetic! you just happen to care alot about your old T, that's not such a bad thing. thanks for sharing your experience, kmay. i know it'll heal after some time, it just feels like after 7 months i'd have gotten over by now. thanks for the hug!Read More...

((((RT)))) I'm so sorry you are going thru so much pain right now! I hope your T gets back to you soon. bluRead More...

I can relate. My MIL relieved me of a few hours of single mommyhood with H out of town and commented I could go hang out with friends, and I kind of laughed, because I really don't have any, not in that way, not that (can) reciprocate. I often feel unconnectable lately. I give up trying easily too. T reassures me I'm not unrelateable or unconnectable. I may just be unconnectable because I'm so triggered by closeness that I run, or that I just can't feel it when others are connecting with me,...Read More...