Thanks (((BLT)))!Read More...

Happy New Year, everybody. Blessed to know you guys another year.Read More...

((((Poppet)))) and ((((others)))) I loathe it also and usually stay home alone, walk boydog, cook us a roast and, sorry people, drink too much to dull feelings!!! It saddens me that so many of you feel the same. xxRead More...

T gave me that poem last year I have it framedRead More...

bluesky, my T and I had this discussion recently. I was telling her something I thought most people would think badly of and I thought she would also. She told me that T's are trained to have a filter and that she is generally looking for things beyond the obvious. She knows more about me than anybody in my life and she keeps letting me come back, lol. I think once you form an attachment with a T, this issue sort of dissolves. Don't let this dissuade you from entering therapy, if you feel it...Read More...

I've been thinking about this alot lately. I never wanted to depend on anyone. It was always the biggest thing between me and my t. I have come through alot and I am just starting to realize that I do depend on her alot. I expect her to answer me right away - even though she doesn't. I expect her to be there no matter what. I know that she is but I don't always use what is available to me. Like in most of my really bad times, as you folks have seen me here write, she sometimes doesn't get...Read More...

BLT, That sounds really good. I'm going to look for it.Read More...

(((JONES))) Happy Holidays to you too! (I'm not good at importing so this will have to do. We need some holiday emoticons. )Read More...

I remember going through a stage of this in therapy. I told T I realized I had been trying to get my attachment needs met in all the wrong places for a very long time because I didn't have a choice, but I had a choice now about it, finally. That was a very liberating thing for me to realize! At this point I seem to be able to accept love from T *and* look for it elsewhere at the same time, so I guess it's the best of all possible scenarios.Read More...

You and me both! That's the way to look at it! I think you are right, AV! Scars, I think you are right!!!Read More...

I am hoping the meds will make a difference after all this resistance. She has only seen me a few times and does not know me yet, though i do feel comfortable with her. I reckon he is fed up with me not opening up fast enough (just my perspective) for him. The way I have been feeling these past few weeks is really getting me down and I need help to shift the cloud. AV did not blow hard enough!!! (on another thread) I am just going to ramble now, because I don't know where to put it and am...Read More...

It's strange I always thought my transference was toward a mother figure in my casual relationships it is. I think what I was looking for was a Father. When I found someone like that it turn things upside down. When he stopped his practice,it was done. I don't want to look anymore it not only hurts but feels dangerous.Read More...

Hi once nice to see you here. Keep in with T she sounds like a good one. NDRead More...

(((Scars))) (((Draggers))) (((Starfishy))) (((Lampers))) Thank you all. Scars; yes we did all we could and in the end I think it was enough. Five of us had a good day and one (my mum) you can never really tell anyway!! Draggers; it is a bit rude isn't it. You may be right in that she sees it as a bit of a favour, her coming to see us, I don't know. Maybe thre's some sort of guilt? on her part that makes it hard for her to speak to me? Starfishy; thank you. I'm so sorry your mum treated you...Read More...

(((AV))) Thanks for sharing. It looks like a gold mine.Read More...

((((( Frosty ))))) Thanks so muchRead More...

HAHAHAH!! HIC, that is hilarious! i didn't know turkeys could swim, either! LOL i'm okay right now with going to my brother's for Thanksgiving. past years have been reeeeaaaallly difficult. putting on a face and trying to fit in. we've had a few get-togethers within the last couple months and i've been pretty good, actually had a half-way decent time for a change. so, my mindset is good at the moment as far as Tgiving goes. my brother will do the turkey, and everybody else brings a dish to...Read More...

Yes, it looked interesting when I thumbed through it at Barnes and Noble a few months ago. Sorry you had to miss it, but perhaps you'll catch the seminar at another date! Take care, StarryRead More...

Hope Granite comes back as the last 2 things she wrote about have happened to me since her post... a) my T says she knows hardly anything about me b) T has asked me to show her some drawings I need to know how Granite has gone ...... as I need to know what to do next..... Granite, come baaaaaacccccckkkkkk.Read More...

Hey Liese! How are you?Read More...

Froglet! How you doin?Read More...

Haha. Yes that's it, BG,Read More...

(((kmay))) (((Starry))) (((katiedid))) Thank you all so much for the kind words and encouragement! The support from friends here as I struggle through my therapy means a lot.Read More...

No worries about bumping threads and all that guilt stuff , if you can't come here and talk about how you're doing without having to pay some kind of quid pro quo dues in terms of posting replies, then the forum is not the place I think it to be. Which is a pretty stupid and convoluted way of saying I'm glad you did post to say how you are doing and that I'm 100% sure no-one is thinking badly of you for not rushing around the place posting madly on every other thread going! I am sorry though...Read More...

Lovely story of your time with your T. Beautiful.Read More...