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CTL - you are not "the only person to not understand sex" Even those of us who are able to talk about it have questions and issues depending on their experiences. What I am saying is if you have issues or questions regarding sex be it about the "mechanics", or the relationship side about it, try using the biological terms when you speak about it with your T, and see it as a sort of research project on your own wildlife documentary, if that makes any sense. You are absolutely normal for...Read More...

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I didn't have to do anything all day except I did hang up my H's clothes because I enjoy it. He cleaned the carpet and made dinner, and I got two cards and some earrings from my kids and watched two movies on TV uninterrupted , and my T even texted me happy mother's day (even though I'm not his mom). My H called his mother and I figured if he could do it, I could, so I did. There was only instance of her making an exasperated sigh and one time where she made excuses for someone who hurt me,...Read More...

Thanks Joie, thats very kind of you. AVRead More...

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I'm also a newbie who has found this place to be sooo helpful and encouraging with thoughtful, kind people. Thank you all so much!Read More...

effed - I'm paying a $30 copay for him to do double sessions with me (sometimes longer). He gets paid $95 by my insurance company and they cover 75 minutes. His usual (non-discounted) fee is $150 per hour. So, I am getting 2+ hours for $125, three times a week. For H's sessions (which go through my single case agreement), he only gets paid $100 for a single hour. Also, sometimes the Skype sessions haven't been charged for (though I didn't know at the time and kept paying as if they were),...Read More...

Aw, thanks all. HIC, you nailed the lyrics that almost brought tears to my eyes. Such a poignant song, "Think of Me." I fell asleep thinking of that one. The song she sings to her father in the cemetery does me in at parts, too. "Wishing you were somehow here again..." I think I'm just aglutton for punishment! Really, most of the major songs have at least a line or two that bring T to mind. Thanks for not making me feel pathetic.... And yeah, AV, these singers aren't as good as Crawford and...Read More...

Transference with my T isn't as intense aas it used to be, but she's still there with me in my everyday life no matter what. Sometimes I don't realize this, but I find that whenever Im stressed or have really bad anxiety, I automatically think about the times when I would just let T hold me, and we would sit in silence and all I could hear was the sund of her heartbeat. Thinking of that always grounds me, puts me at ease, and I end up getting this really goofy grin on my face that I don't...Read More...

HIC, have you ever tried applying acupressure to your wrist: http://www.quickandsimple.com/...-wrist-080205-lg.jpg Glad to read this.Read More...

BLT, Thanks...that's good to know! I never would have guessed that. HopefulRead More...

AG: 65 sunny days a year!!! OMW! Do they pay people some form of compensation to live there? That is awful. That is 300 crummy days a year! You have my sympathy.Read More...

Well this movie isn't from my childhood, but my T reminds me soooooooo much of the mom from The Blind Side. She's Southern, (TX not Miss. though) she's sweet but if needed, she WILL take anyone down. T is more of a cowgirl too; classy cowgirl ;D I knew T reminded me of someone but I just couldn't put my finger on it until now that I'm rewatching the Blind Side for the 2nd time haha. I prefer my T thoughRead More...

FMN: It seems all you need to do to put yourself in a better mood is play piano to your favourite song, "what a fool believes"! CTL: I can see you are a little disturbed about that Barbie song Don't take my comments to heart....Barbie song is great!Read More...

Just on my own. It helps me relax/clear my head sometimes too.Read More...

Such a beautiful story TN and you absolutely deserve every accolade and congratulation. They went to such great trouble and it sounds like it was just perfect. Yay SDRead More...

Hey effed. Thanks for your support . I made it to my saturday session, yes. That's the thing, I need to talk to her regardless of a lot of things that go on, I need someone there to listen to me. After all my life not having it, I crave it now. I'm going to be continuing therapy with someone else. I had an assessment and they diagnosed mem BPD (which I still question sometimes) but anyway, I'll be having therapy with a psychologist from the mental health team.Read More...

Haha. Sadly, yes, that reminded me of last session when I was trying to get her to out the reason why she became a therapist (yes I was suspicious, perhaps in order to push her away) and she cleverly managed to turn it around onto me and eventually made me cry about my own Mother!. So annoying. I wanted to out her on something and she outed me! She's smart. Too smart. Sometimes it really annoys me. Last session she said something along the lines of 'well, this can never be a normal...Read More...

This thread is awesome lol. I can't imagine my therapist doing anything like that. I think its because I've put her in this image of perfection which isn't good really. I forget that she is just human sometimes. She's so small and dainty though that her farting would probably crack me up or make me feel really awkward. I only imagine her eating cup cakes with fine bone china tea whilst gliding slowly around the garden patio. The fact that she does and experiences all bodily functions as we...Read More...

1) Emu's are one of my favorite animals. (I actually had the pleasure of seeing one whilst I was on the train going past a small farm here in the UK last week! Very exciting!). 2) I have the habit of obsessive compulsive spartanism (the opposite to hoarding). I get like it when I attempt to reduce my belongings to nothing. I think it is to do with anxiety/the need to not be defined because I go through identity issues anyway. I'm still not sure why I do it but it makes me feel very clear...Read More...

Go figure that this hilarious thread finally gets me to post. Hi, and thanks. Last session T and I were having an intense moment. I became frustrated and said, "F%#@ a duck!" He said, "What's that like?" and I immediately replied, "Fowl." He started laughing and then replayed it in his mind and laughed harder. He said, "Hey, do I have permission to use that?" I said, "Uh, sure," bemused at his reaction. Then he said the whole exchange out loud again, like two people, and kept laughing. It's...Read More...

AG, you are appreciated!Read More...

Aw...Frosty that would be the kind of thing that would really get to me too. I mean- it's just SO insensitive and downright rude. How are you- where's my book...for the third time? seriously?Read More...