He rio-I think the way you handled everything was really brave and forthright without being demeaning. You probably did her a lot of good. I hope you will be able to find a really good T when you need one, who will keep themselves out of the room...good for you for knowing that it wasn't working, and moving on, instead of trying to make something work that clearly wasn't going to for you. BBRead More...

Tygr, See I told you that you were amazing. Flowers, a bath--sounds heavenly. Draggers--sometimes existence is all that we can believe in and that's okay. This self love stuff isn't the easiest thing in the world. It's challenging. So, no matter how BIG or small your display of self love is--it's good. Today I held my baby a little longer and got some good cuddle time. I am taking my lunch break to myself and going to run some errands. I told myself I looked good in the mirror, and my little...Read More...

We LOVE you, Yaku! Sorry you are going through a hard time.Read More...

Very sad but powerful. Thanks for sharing, BI. You are a gifted writer.Read More...

I understand why face to face is better. My therapist and I are doing intense trauma work, but right now she is out of town for a couple months. She said we can skype and talk on the phone... but it just isn't the SAME. It was hard when she left-- beccause we both know how important the "in person" part is to me. She says it wont be the same, she knows that, but at least it would be SOMETHING. But I just really, really need her in person.Read More...

(((((DF))))) I think it totally warrants a call to your T, these are big decisions!! I want to just comment though that I don't think T should be telling you not to go back to school. She should be encouraging you to pursue things that will make you happy, and if that is school...then go for it.Read More...

I wonder why people find fault in others so easily than findin something good? I'm irritated with my sis in law who keep teaching me traditional things. Its not wrong but its th timing. Just thought of sharing here. As i don want to tell anyone.Read More...

Thank you so much for your kind reply. This was very moving for me to read - and very helpful. Especially what you said about giving the world what she wanted to. That is very powerful and really opened my eyes. I appreciate your reply and I am so, so sorry for your loss. My parents are changed people from losing their daughter. I can't even imagine what you're going through. Stay strong and thanks again for the kind words!Read More...

Hi SD, This is actually a complicated question and the answer somewhat depends on what the asker really wants to know. No one is the exact same person in all circumstances with all people, it actually wouldn't be appropriate. Of course, we're going to be behave differently at our job than we would at a family party, or behave differently with our kids than we would with our friends. In our relationship with our kids, we need to keep it about their needs and not place the burden of our needs...Read More...

I understand better now frosty. That makes sense about why your P suggested suing them, although that would be awful... Do your parents know that if they kicked you out, they would need to give that money to you? Or are they saying they would keep it? (Maybe it hasn't come up?) Makes sense too about going inpatient. Grr. This is just crummy. I wish your parents would get help for themselves. My mom asked me once how she could help me with my illness, and she even met with my T and I to talk...Read More...

How did it go, DF? Hope you were able to make yourself go, but understand if you weren't. Taking those huge steps can be terrifying, but so healing if/when we force ourselves to feel the fear and do it anyway. MTFRead More...

Wishing you all the best with your session today ((((((( AG ))))))) LLRead More...

Fantastic, Yaku. It takes a lot of stamina and patience to work out insurance problems like this - applause for you! I hope this helps to ease things with your mortgage situation.Read More...

Oh heck yeah it impacts my looks. I gained 30 pounds in a few months last year, granted I was a bit underweight to begin with but yeah, it totally changed the way I looked. I even stopped showering every day at one point and just wore whatever was hanging on the end of the laundry basket from the day before. i've noticed that when I started interviewing for the job I got, I felt soooo much better about myself when I got dressed all cute like I used to. Now I make more of an effort to get...Read More...

My T gives me his notes almost every week. I find them very honest, right on, and quite interesting to read. I can only think of once or twice that something upset me and I questioned him on it. He then got upset that I was questioning essentially his personal take on things. I actually apologized that I was out of bounds. So, he says I'm the only patient that has asked to see their notes??? Cant believe that. Anyway, I appreciate him sharing them with me. I need to know where he thinks I...Read More...

((GG)) - I think if you feel like you have to whine and whinge - then you go for it. If it is what you need to function let it out. I tend to find that when things are going so negatively for me - then i get a ton of physical complaints also. Thanks Universe.Read More...

Hi RAD I'm glad you decided to post here and I think Smiley and the others have given you some very good suggestions. I would also endorse looking into seeing a counselor at school. I think you need someone to talk to aside from your best friend (which is also good to do). The reason is that this counselor will make this all about you and will be totally open to hearing you and helping you. Crisis lines are another good option to get you through those dark times when you feel alone. And...Read More...

(((Jane))) I'm sorry things are so hard and totally respect you not being able to or wanting to post about it here. I am glad your T and SD have been so present for you, supporting you through such a rough time. You are saying it is worse than how things have been so far, so I too am amazed at how you are moving through all this stress while dealing with your move. It sounds like you are in a safe place with these roommates, so I hope you are able to settle into that safety and really take...Read More...

Yaku, Good luck, I hope it goes well. I know how scary pdoc appts can be. I don't even think that pdoc I saw had paperwork with symptoms. In fact, I am pretty sure I never filled out anything like that. Just name and insurance info was all. Anyway, I hope it goes better than you fear. (((hugs)))Read More...

LadyGrey, Thank you for acknowledging how I feel. LL, in fairness to him he did acknowledge that this would be a short session when I arrived; I just don’t think I realised at that point how short 25 minutes really is. In the 2 years that I have been seeing him he has never once been late. Thank you for remembering my previous posts. I think when I’ve posted it’s when things haven’t been going well so it comes across that he is cold when most of the time he gets it spot on which is why when...Read More...

(((DF))) If I understand correctly you are questioning (when you are triggered) if you are actually triggered or just expecting to be and then making yourself feel that way? I am not sure that the latter is possible nor do I think that is what you are doing. I think what you wrote above about not wanting to put narrative to it, but the feelings of being triggered still being there is a great way to approach this with T. As far as triggers getting better, yes they can get better. I have been...Read More...

((((DF)))) So funny. I always think that so many people have it easier than me, lots easier. I'm sure it's not true but I have that in my head. Things come easier to them. All sorts of things. But it seems like all the important things I'm bad at. Relationships, organizational skills, etc. So if struggle is the mark of success, why do you want your past obliterated? Sorry you are having a difficult time with this. xoxo LieseRead More...

Way to go LG - that is fab newsRead More...

That's another great idea. I haven't gotten to read a book for fun in quite a while, because I am a sit down and read for hours type of reader and Boo never gives me that luxury. I feel the sudden need to visit a bookstore! I'm a little bit proud of me, but also still freaked out, because so far the whole boundaries thing hasn't been such an easy ride. Who would have thought, LOL!Read More...