Welcome back Forlorn! I've missed your posts...mlcRead More...

((((TN))))) Sorry. I can't imagine how that must feel. Hugs (and affection in general) are such a sensitive subject for me, because they were nearly nonexistent with my parents during my childhood. The idea of being rejected for one feels like dying. I am so happy my H is such an affectionate father. Boo will grow up having lots of hugs, kisses and snugs from my mom and dad.Read More...

Oops I put my thanks to you AG in the wrong forum, I was so excited about the new sub forums! So going to repeat it here, thank you so much AG for all your hard work and effort and for making this place even better. LLRead More...

(((((LG))))) Haha, I agree that we are a lot alike. However, I am trying to learn to give up on the idea of coping on my own. Because I suck at it. Very badly!!!Read More...

Well, whoever starts the thread can claim, "Starting this thread," as a positive step, right?Read More...

Thanks, LG. I'll take your word on it and I'm sure my T is out there thanking you for saving him even more ridiculous texts!Read More...

TN - thanks for your response. Yes she always does this. She's very busy and then has her family time after nine. I think at least a response would be good but what do I know? Anyway, don't want to change T - just want to finish this.Read More...

That scenario sounds very comforting, Yaku. I hope you are able to get this from your T some day.Read More...

Yaku - no need to apologize. Thanks for being here.Read More...

Thanks STRM, I know it's totally normal to be feeling like this. I looked up more about the area and it's not that bad i guess... there is a nice bakery where I could grab a tea before our session just around the corner.Read More...

Dang DF I come to read your threads at the wrong time and end up only seeing deleted posts, but like others have sort of gathered what this thread was about. It sounds like your session was pretty positive though despite all the feelings of shame you are being attacked by. That you do art which expresses how you feel strikes me as something you might be able to use more in your therapy. I know you struggled big time here even thinking about offering your T something emotionally meaningful to...Read More...

Hi, Mrs. P. It's ok to post only when you need to or are able to- I think most of us do that, and that's totally normal and not selfish or anything. I'm sorry you seem to still be struggling with this stuff. Are you still seeing your old T? BBRead More...

bb, Thank you for sharing this. Liese, Thank you for inspiring bb to share this. So much to aspire to.... seablueRead More...

UV, The good news is: you can feel. The bad news is: it sucks, doesn't it? ((((HUGS)))) LieseRead More...

Good to know you're around Moomin - I hope things are a little better for you! HugsRead More...

My current Dx is Anxiety and moderate depression (know this cause of the insurance codes.) Thought I know right now we're working through a lot of PTSD crap, too, but that's not been coded for insurance. I don't really think it needs to be, either, really. I think that the Dx is not nearly as important as the work itself, and am kinda glad that my T and my P are using the general codes for insurance. Keeps things simpler, I suppose?Read More...

You guys make a great point. I would love for his default position to be "with me," but it really is something that should be reserved for the necessity of working through overwhelming stuff. Just because I feel child-like feelings toward him, does not mean that what I really need or should receive from him is a parental connection. What I really wish for, is when I get to that point where I cannot even speak, because I am in so much pain and he feels too far away for my words to cross the...Read More...

Thanks. I've got a pretty high level of honesty with T. No meds yet. Still vaccilating on that one. If I went on meds, I'd like it to be a process my T is involved in, but if I go through the psychiatrists in his office, HMO won't cover it, because everything I do with him is out of pocket. So, I would have to see GP and have her refer me elsewhere, to someone who probably wouldn't coordinate with T...which would be a confusing situation.Read More...

Great songs, UV- thanks for posting them! BBRead More...

1. "so and so" called in sick today. ie: more work for me again 2. manicure, pedicure 3. tom hanks 4. beautiful beach vacation on the gulf of mexico 5. do my training walk (hopefully 8-9 miles), bead shopping, jewelry making, reading, going to bed earlyRead More...

OK! Let's do it. It might be triggering, and it might be better in there. I'll go put it up now. For anybody wondering what we are talking about- the book is "Healing through the Dark Emotions by Miriam Greenspan.Read More...

Hello and welcome tcmmama, starfishRead More...

Yaku, these are really big decisions... and I will be praying for you! I've done a little bit of both working and staying home. I much prefer staying home, and with two kids any amt of time I could work would likely cancel itself out after daycare etc. The beautiful thing is kids are resilient... and so she would be fine in the right care, and you might feel happier contributing to the finances. I think every mom has to do what works best for her, because if mama aint happy aint nobody happy...Read More...

Thanks LG and STRM, we're going to still TRY for tomorrow morning, but he is not 100% sure whether his schedule will permit. If that doesn't work out, then probably some time on Saturday. I'm secretly happy to know a little bit more about his family. Not anything weird or too personal, but he is seeming more human to me right now.Read More...

I didn't react or say anything when she made the comment about Facebook. I wish I had said something about it though, but in the moment I remember thinking I wanted to appear unaffected by it. She can't see my wall, so all she can see is my bio, etc. Not sure why she would have looked me up on Facebook. I don't really care that she did, I'm more just curious why???Read More...