Thank you everyone! The showcase was spectacular - all the kids were absolutely amazing and I was so proud of them! The birthday was... My students made it very special by having a little surprise party for me, which was very sweet. It was kind of sad, though, that while I put on a happy face for them and all their efforts (ten year olds planning a party and keeping it a surprise is a challenging feat!) I really could not let their joy in. Worked on it with my T and have uncovered some yucky...Read More...

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Yaku, I struggle with asking for too much too. And, I worry about my T moving things around for me to accommodate me. It feels like too much. But the truth of the matter is, that I am so flooded right now, like you, and I really need the extra emotional support. I feel so much better knowing it's in place. My life runs smoother. It's one less thing to worry about. I am so glad you asked for what you wanted even though it was hard to do and it's hard to accept!!!Read More...

How did I miss out on all the fun going on in here? good thing my fam is in bed, I'm laughing pretty hard at some of your comments! anybody read the book "potatoes not prozac?" Eggs are gooooood, LG. What's wrong with the yolks? but seriously...pickle relish in deviled eggs? It can't be. DF, if you are laying in bed awake, worrying about your eggs...I suggest you do the crepe thing. mmmmmmmmm. Roll it up, with bacon and cheese. (BB impersonates Homer Simpson gargling...)Read More...

((Liese)), I don't have anything to add, just wanted to say we're in the same boat with our Hs. Mine is scared I'm going to grow and later abandon him, but he doesn't want to work on himself in therapy. He thinks he knows his own issues and can work on them himself. It makes me sad, and I too feel like you do about leaving them behind. But we have to do what's best for ourselves and realize that we each have our own work to do, and we can't force it on others to do their work. They have to...Read More...

Thanks, BG - I really do need to learn how to stand up for myself. That is why I like going to GP. She makes me feel safe to assert my own opinions. Liese - Thanks so much for asking after me. That's very sweet! I have a separate thread with the details in Personal Accounts section, but I am just spent right now. I feel like I don't have any more to give, but the toddler I watch is coming over soon, so I will have to find something in myself to offer these precious little ones.Read More...

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Hi again, Thank you all for the encouragement about sharing more and I really do intend to but there's been a lot of grief associated with both the memory I processed and leaving my T which stands in sharp contrast to how incredibly good the session was and all the positive things that came out of it. So I am struggling to process all of my emotions. I don't want to write about all the grief and give the impression that things are bad. On the other hand, if I talk about all the good stuff, I...Read More...

Based on my very limited knowledge of the session, I respectfully disagree. Therapists are trained to be very conscious of their demeanor, voice and tone in response to clients. It sounds to me like she was being callous on purpose, like she was trying to stir you up, to get you to question your fears in the first place. The reason is probably because you did try to get over your phobias by sampling some of the foods you're scared of, but then you went back to not eating them again - your T...Read More...

Thanks Jones- you really get it. I appreciate this so much. Yes, yes yes. I think I am going to try the pillow punching thing, next time. I am going to whale the hell out of those suckers. I used to kick my dryer, but that gets my kids too scared as it is so loud, so I better not do that.Read More...

Oh Daisy, I am glad you contacted your T and that he responded so quickly! This really is NOT a trivial thing - I think any of us would feel let down by what happened with your appt time. And this might be just my own stuff, but especially when another client comes into the mix. Please ignore if it doesn't apply to you, but I get VERY TERRITORIAL with my T when it comes to the "others." I also know that embarassed or sometimes guilty feeling that creeps in after contacting T. Please try to...Read More...

Morning all, Quick update - the rash has stopped spreading and stopped itching. I still have the hives and such, but they are starting to fade. I'm hoping it was simply the meds and it will all be gone soon. Now, I just have to make it til Thursday so I can get something new. Happy (argh) Monday!Read More...

Hey, Smiley....... I hope you are okay. Thinking of you. Please let us know how you are doing. TNRead More...

TN, Thinking of you!! So sorry you are hurting. I hope you can post about what happened when you are ready. seablueRead More...

I was doing OK this morning...and then the sermon at church was very triggering. The pastor talked about the four different types of difficulties we face: trials, temptations, trespasses and troubles. The first two, yeah, sure whatever. But when he was talking about trespasses of others against us (even saying the word "abuse") and troubles brought on by our own choices, I got triggered into feeling attacked. I started feeling things happening to me. I had to hide in the bathroom. And then I...Read More...

Yep, I get that popup for my messages as well and I have to click on it and read what I wrote and then it will go away. It is super annoying!Read More...

Not in that way. I'm trying to work on a way to tell her that. I have to admit (I'm in denial, ashamed etc) that I sent her an absolute war and peace document just after my session telling her how it is for me in that room. You are probably right PF. I know that she has been there for me consisently, and that she has had to deal with a lot of sh*t from me and yet she's still there... but, if she could just repeat those words you wrote in a very unforced manner, that would be so nice :-)...Read More...

Hey Deepfers, I gotta agree with STRM here, that this seems like the important stuff! I wonder if maybe it will be easier this time round for you, simply because you have already done it once through with your regulariT. I'm pretty sure your T won't be disappointed to hear it - in the grand scheme of things, it's actually really exciting and healthy that you are feeling safe enough to draw closer and feel scared, if that makes sense. And your T isn't into judging you, remember? Big hug, JonesRead More...

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LG - I aspire to be like you someday!Read More...

I never see my session notes but T2 writes down literally everything I say. I am amazed at her ability to be so totally present with me and maintain eye contact and convey empathy all the while she is writing frantically everything I am saying. I do not think T1 takes notes, but I can't see her since its on the phone but I do not recall her ever taking notes when I met with her in high school.Read More...

Wow LG, that is so sweet that you remembered your father like that. Great day to have a birthday on!! My oldest son's middle name is Patrick so he has always loved the 17th. ~D.Read More...

LG, I get this as well, and have always thought it was some form of hypeventilation. See below: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hyperventilation beathing doesn't have to be very fast or deep, mind. breathing exc help, I find.Read More...

Ah, yes. I see you have sought and found the golden bunny, as well LG. Your great wisdom will be rewarded.Read More...

Sparkle, I can totally relate to this and thank you for putting it so nicely into words I could never seem to find. I did this very thing with my T but I was unable to effectively convey those feelings to her at the time. Of course, she thought my action equated to anger -- far from it. Unlike your situation, I was able to reconnect with my therapist and ask for ongoing sessions and we worked through that less than graceful departure of mine. All that said, I'd be inclined to tell you not to...Read More...