Liese, BB, Yaku, LG, STRM ~ thank you all so much for your kind words, thoughts, and prayers... I feel like I have been hit by a truck. I mixed up the appointment times for my regular T, but we were able to talk on the phone. Then I got to go see my eq T. It went well. I felt a lot better and much more settled. Then a couple hours after, I think I had like a seperation anxiety attack. I called my regular T, and just told her what was going on. I didn't ask for a call back, but she called me...Read More...

that made me smile :-)Read More...

Ugh. Still don't know whether I am seeing T tonight or not. He said he might be sick, but never texted to cancel. So, I texted this morning to ask if we are meeting for our session. No reply yet. I was feeling good this morning, like it's OK if I don't see him...but now I am panicking again. And my new client (a friend) just told me she can't handle separating from her kid yet, so I get one day of work and lose the rest. I'm at peace, because I was concerned I wouldn't be able to emotionally...Read More...

Nice to see you, Marsh-Read More...

What she said!!!Read More...

On my first birthday with oldT he just said "I want to wish you a very Happy Birthday" ... he knew because it was a session with my son and my son who was 8 at the time told him because he was excited. On my next birthday which was a beautiful day, I brought in donuts and a book I was reading that had resonated with me. So we ate dounts and I read to him some passages from the book and we talked about them and then at the end of the session he VERY unexpectedly hugged me for the first time.Read More...

For what it is worth, I have quit several times just to feel the relief of me being in control. After a few days or a week, when I start to feel differently, I let myself call them for an appointment and go back. They do not seem to be fazed by it.Read More...

I get this a lot. I think it is so rough for me to deal with because it is exactly what happens in my family, and I've never liked the anticipation of whatever it is, as it was often something that wasn't necessarily in my favor. I think it's totally passive-aggressive, just not in as hurtful of a way as it often seen. Personally, I've done this many, many times, especially in my past, when I was hurting and in need of feeling special. I never took it far, more of a "hey, did you hear?"...Read More...

I think being honest is the way to go. I too worry about being pushed away. Honest got me berated, threatened and kicked out of my home throughout my youth. But, there are safe people to be honest with. Like the others have said, T is a good start. I am slowly taking steps into relationships with people I think I can count on with that honesty. Right now, it's just my T, my pastor and his wife, a set of friends from church who has similar family history...but it is slowly increasing. I also...Read More...

Hi SG, My smpathy to you over the loss of you pet. I know that it is painful. In addition I am very sorry that your mom just doen't get it and Probably won't. That is a rejection from hell. Never could understand that type of behavior. (((((((((((((((SG)))))))))))))))Read More...

Confused... about why therapy has made me worse and not better so far. Other than connecting with another human being and being able to begin trusting/needing someone else, everything has gone down hill. I've struggled with depression (and related thoughts) all my life, but never gestured until therapy. I've struggled with hating myself, but never physically punished myself until therapy. I've struggled with anxiety, but never had it cripple me into not achieving the things I absolutely must...Read More...

I noticed it was missing too. I was thinking the same as MH so thanks for the reassurance, AG. ~D.Read More...

I find the same thing in my profession. I shirk away compliments as they bother me immensely. A small part of me (my superego, I believe) loves the compliments, but the rational part of me is always questioning my worthiness of receiving them. I hope that all of our Ts get satisfaction out of creating a safe space so that their clients can comfortably open up. I hope they also get satisfaction out of the fact that they are able to hold the trust of the least trusting people. I can imagine...Read More...

I will gladly answer any that I can!Read More...

Thanks, my sister seems to be doing really well. My nephew is a bit traumatized, stuck to his Mom. I have to watch him five hours tonight and he screams if she even hands him to me for a few minutes. I have been his major caregiver outside of her, but he's just freaked out. I'm struggling to process my own stuff with people around all the time (I can deal with people sometimes, but am introverted enough I definitely need alone time to recharge and my sister is very extroverted). So, I'm...Read More...

Dear PG's sister, I’m so sorry for you and your family's loss. You are so kind to honor your dear sister's wish to let as all know about the loss of your dear sister. She was a wonderful caring and kind person! She will be sorely missed here but she will always be remembered! My prayers for you and your family through this terrible loss.Read More...

Welcome back, DF! Tongue piercing? Nice! That's hot.Read More...

Interesting thread. I felt,and still feel, at times, undeserving of therapy. I voiced my concern and my T had IMHO, a GREAT reply. I was feeling incredibly guilty about wanting to have more than one session a week (I wanted 3, but scheduling allowed for 2.) She said it is not the weak that seek out counseling and support, but the opposite. She said it takes an incredibly strong and courageous person to seek therapy, to look deep inside and spend XX amount of time each week to examine...Read More...

This is making me so tempted to try, LOL. My curiosity will not win though, because I am so honest with T, I would end up telling him eventually and I don't want to have to tell him that until I'm a little more secure he's not going anywhere.Read More...

Irony makes me feel more detached and is soothing to me. So I do pick ringtones for that purpose.Read More...

Jumping on way late here, but I feel compelled to reply as this thread has been HUGE for me to read. Big time. I just uncovered a photo of my T through a mylife search, which led me to her "other" last name, which led me to her son's FB page (which does not have the photos marked private) which led me to her Husband's FB page (again, photos not private) which landed me a photo of her. Attachment? Yep. Boundary issues? Yep. Fear of her kicking me off the couch, so to speak? Yep. But I'm...Read More...

Yeah, best I have gotten is my anger connecting with me...and that hasn't been too safe. It's my need to achieve though. T told me to stop shutting out my feelings and by the third session, I had several pages about how I thought and felt about the incident. And then I kind of fell apart. I don't think he anticipated at all how my on-off switch works. And I will tear myself apart trying to achieve something I've been asked to do.Read More...

Still waiting for P to call me with an appointment time. Constantly have this anxious feeling. I wish he would call. I'd still have that anxious feeling but for a different reason--I'd have to talk about all the stuff that happened last weekend and I'd be anxious about that. GRRRRRRRead More...

With T2, I am constantly either terminating my therapy or canceling appointments with her. With T1, I tell her things and ask her not to tell T2 or I try to make her mad at me or disappointed in me. I try to see how far I can go before she decides I am too much to deal with. She has said that she will NEVER terminate me and I am determined to prove her wrong! lolRead More...

Well, last night he randomly came up to me and said he was "sorry for not being there as much as [I need him]." He didn't talk with the counselor about it, it was just something that was on his heart. He gave the example of telling me he didn't want to be my second therapist and said he was feeling really bad about it. This gave me the opportunity to explain that it's not that he's not there for me in the amount that I need, but just not in the way that I need. I told him I really did...Read More...