Hi CT, thanks for the really nice message. I do so many extreme swings in a week & it wears me out. I guess they are not so extreme on the grand scale of things, I can still get up, work, and so on but for me when the anxiety kicks in everything feels so total. I make myself keep going but inside I'm just racing and racing. Then when we fight I get these flashes of really violent images in my head, not memories, just images, and that scares me. One of the things I find hard about the...Read More...

Hi Amazon I'm seeing a CBT Therapist, but not really doing CBT as of yet. I've only seen her three times so far and all we've talked about (other than getting to know my family history)is the transference. Is it working?? Not yet .. but she is trying to help me with it. After the holidays I imagine it will become more intense and I'll let you know how it goes. Merry Christmas HolzRead More...

Hey Halo I had told my P that I was attracted to her about 8 months before I quit. She's a Jekyll/Hyde person so at first she smiled and blushed then it was like she shook it off and became very brash with me. I don't think that it affected our therapy (which wasn't good anyway) but we never spoke of it again. I do feel much the same as you do .. I can't even drive in the area of her office without feeling a pull to go and see her, and the pain that comes with not being able to. I've even...Read More...

Amazon, I think this can happen in many ways. One or both of his parents can send the message that "big boys don't cry," and then of course he could get this idea at school or around other kids. Kids are incredibly cruel, and they were cruel to me for sure. If you're a quiet reserved kid like I was, you are most certainly going to be picked on and called all sorts of names and be accused of being a fag, etc, etc. And if you feel it's not OK to cry, then it all just turns to anger. I also...Read More...

CT, You are just a babe... But sometimes, us old fogies can learn something from the young'ns... And I totally understand the being depressed part and also the "lurkdom" (I spent almost 5 months lurking)... I have to say, my suicide attempts were pre-marraige. Well, for the most part. Some say my anorexia was an indirect attempt (which is true to a degree) and I suffered with that until just about 10 years ago. For the most part, I have never been away from my boys. I think just recently I...Read More...

Hi Mrs P, so good to see you posting again. I have processed quite a lot of stuff since I saw him. I have realized it in my head and in my heart that he is a really selfish man - not just a selfish and cruel therapist. I am not supposed to know anything about him as a person but sadly I know far too much about him and what I know I don't like. How are you travelling? I hope you are feeling better. Halo That has made it a lot easier for me to make the break from him. If I hadn't gone back I...Read More...

Hi Scott, There are no words to comfort you so all I can say is that I hope you have lots of support around you and we're always here if you need to talk or just wanna read some threads that you feel might help. It's definitely gonna take time as the cliche goes but I have found it's true from loved ones I've lost. It'll never be the same but it becomes a bit easier. Hugs and love, Mrs. PRead More...

Hi all. Totally addicted to the show as i think I mentioned earlier. When I found the links online I watched every day for as long as I could until the episodes ran out. I loved the storylines and spent my time analysing Paul and the patients! It's amazing how much you pick up from going to therapy! I loved Paul's manner-i.e. facial expressions and body language. I mean throughout the series I think he makes a lot of mistakes-particularly with laura but then I can see a lot of good work he...Read More...

Hi KS, Sorry I'm posting back so late. I agree that this site is great for support and has lots of very kind and considerate people. I find it very hard to keep up with all of the threads too! Sometimes I see so much that I want to reply to with a meaningful response but it's just too overwhelming. So my advice to you is to do what you can and try to get the best out of what's on offer here. Take care, Mrs. PRead More...

First, Happy Thanksgiving to all those who celebrate. And a Happy Day to everyone else! I, unfortunaely, am not in a very thankful mood. But if was, I would be thankful for... Forget it, I just typed about 3 lines and thought - I really do not feel that way right now. Maybe I will be able to express things later. KSRead More...

Thank you both for your replies. First off, I do not take any offense to any advice given. I appreciate any advice, and the thought behind it. Attachment Girl - we were both young when we met, I was 15, he was 18. We, or at least I, wasnt thinking long term at the time. We just kinda grew together, and moulded to each others lifestyles, and have not been apart since. The reason I married him is because he is an amazing man. He makes me feel very secure. He is a good provider, and a very...Read More...

Hey Amazon, it's a good thing Very Very good thing. I admire your T. Of course some clients will google thier T's If you can't find any information about your T on the internet. It's best for clients. + if your T wants full privacy, he wouldn't put anything about himself on-line anyways...Read More...

Thanks for sharing more about your experiences, Deja Vu. You have had some pretty unusual and difficult circumstances in therapy and I'm sorry to hear about all the pain it has put you through. A good friend and I were just talking the other night about how dogs are so wonderful, because where else can you get that much unconditional love? So I just had to smile at this: SGRead More...

Hi Jones, thank you. Your words have brought me a lot of comfort.Read More...

Hi River- I don't think we have ever talked, but I had to comment on that priceless picture. If my t cancelled an appointment, I would have to fire him...again. Thanks for making me smile, and I get to practice that pout- that was a good idea shrinklady.Read More...

Hi Amazon. I'm not in your situation but I think you shouldn't be so hard and demanding of yourself. I'm sure you're upset and worried about the whole situation and I hope you're ok. All I can say is that my relationship with my ex looked so so different once i started going to therapy. I didn't go to therapy until well after we'd broken up but it gave me great insight into why I did the things I did in the relationship. I don't know if I could've gotten that clarity while still in the...Read More...

Hi Halo, Mrs. P said it beautifully so I'd like to second what she said. You are really hanging in there and I'm so glad you are starting to feel better. Keep up the good work, and keep posting! Hugs, SGRead More...

Thanks, Summer. I know you know how this feels and I always appreciate your support and encouragement. What is so frustrating about these emotional down-swings is that I do realize, on an intellectual level, that the abrupt ending was due to his weaknesses. All I have to do is look at all the great responses here, and the way my new T is doing things, and compare them to my journal of sessions with my former T. Unlike your T, he was good about not letting us chat for too long. Which was...Read More...

Hi everyone... I just wanted to post a further update to my story. But first I want to thank everyone for their suggestions an support. And HB... I could never be angry with you! As I mentioned on Monday night I got an email from my T that I didn't answer but I did call him on Wednesday morning and ask for a half session. I hate when I'm upset with him and feel that he is upset with me too. I'm not one to let it sit and so I called and he scheduled me for that afternoon. We calmly sat and...Read More...

Hi Amazon. Well done! You are a much stronger person than I am. From what you've said you've had an inkling about those feelings for a while. I don't know how strong they are in comparison to mine but even though I went back to my ex-T in order to bring some closure on such feelings, I just couldn't spell it out. I was too hard. I love(d) him too much, I felt too embarrassed to tell him my "silly, imaginary" feelings. I just didn't and still don't think they're realistic and yet it still...Read More...

Hi herewego I also do read your posts. I don't reply because I'm afraid that I may say something stupid and I see that you do feel a lot of pain and anger towards that guy. Besides, I don't know what went on. You can vent here as much as you want. I do it too. However I don't think my venting here about how much I love my therapist is any constructive. But I know in the past I needed something like that website a lot more....Read More...

Thanks Mrs P, your kind words mean so much to me. I have made a decision and I am not going back. This is so difficult for me. I am going to text him to cancel when I have coffee with my close friend who is a counsellor on Tues. I see my dr twice a week and my friend once a week. I know I am very blessed to have such fantastic support from my dr and friends and from this forum. Sadly I am in a very low place at the moment and I am very focused on just getting through the next few weeks.Read More...

Hi HB, You mentioned on another thread that your big move is in progress, or close to it. I hope everything goes smoothly and quickly for you and that you feel peaceful and settled in your new digs. I'll be thinking about you. Peace, SGRead More...

Hi Incognito...and others too. I just want to say that I'm thinking about you and how hard that last session must've been. I can empathise with the need for reassurance constantly and the feelings of neediness. I went through a very similar thing with my ex-T.I avoided sending him emails as much as I could....I like very very clear boundaries as I can read into everything, no matter how small. I preferred not to test the boundaries because I knew I would keep pushing them. And my T was very...Read More...