Thanks for taking time from your day to take a stand for protecting children.Read More...

that was the quickest 11 minutes i've experienced in my life. this wonderful person has a deep message for anybody that's willing and open-minded enough to listen. thanks for sharing this, Chezza!Read More...

I'm a little late to the conversation but HIC I respond much the same as you when my children have been hurt. Scoop them up, and age what needs to be bandaged, and send them back on their way. I will sometimes at a later point in time have a more emotional reaction. T says this is classic PTSD. I don't always though. I have seen friends of mine that seem way more concerned when their children are hurt and I too wonder if I don't care enough. JillannRead More...

Thanks everybody. I only ate one small Halloween kit kat bar so I controlled my chocolate craving for the most part today. Now I just have to stay away from the chocolate. Today we just found out about the numbers. It will be a few weeks before individuals find out if they are being let go. We feel pretty good about DH job. Mine is much less secure. We have survived on just his income before and we can again. It just means cutting back on a lot of things but it can be done.Read More...

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Thank you for sharing this BLT. It really gave me something to think about. I do believe that my T would be very distraught if something ever happened to me. TNRead More...

Haha, I also voted bat out of hell. Nice quiz - I enjoyed it!Read More...

((((SD)))) It makes sense that you would be unable to get into the middle of that high level of understanding when you are hyperaroused. I could just see Bessel shaking his head saying, "Of course you can't." You are not alone. I can't access that reason either when I am triggered.Read More...

Glad to hear how things turned out! Nice job holding your ground TN! (((TN)))Read More...

Smilingpenguin, Thank you for your response! How you described trust and help is very true for me, only you wrote it better than I could. I hate being helpless, and I need help. My 'disability' and the way people treat people with disabilities makes complicated and PTSD and trust are complicated with out that! I am not writing much, but I am still thinking through everything. Thank you again. Still Trying, LostRead More...

Thank you for your comments! I use various forms of writing, etc, to try to 'fill in the blanks', but it often makes me feel guilty to even want to keep it, so, I like the idea of a closed box (but transparent, so I know they are still here, safe). T somehow gave me the idea, indirectly. I am currently quite struggling with the feelings of wanting T to care between the sessions and the shame and guilt going with them, so... it's my try. And of course, feel free to try it, use it, adapt it, ...Read More...

ah yes SP you brought le francais! perhaps you can be our forum empress and it felt like three millenniums not three decades!!!Read More...

((((((Draggers)))))) I am so proud of you for taking good care of yourself by putting some much needed space around yourself so you can get the rest and downtime you so deserve. Sending gigantic hugs and love to you, xxxxxRead More...

Lovely story. Fab that she can enforce her own boundaries so calmly and effectively!Read More...

I have to get permission to join the sensitive issues part....Read More...

((((GE)))) It does sound like your H overreacted but, then again, maybe something happened between your H and his mom that we don't know about? If not, I'd say she was being a responsible babysitter. If it were my kid, I'd rather a babysitter do what she did than leave my 2 year old unattended. You said she had been watching him for a few hours. Maybe she had been waiting for your H to come home so that she could go and, when he put her off, just decided she couldn't wait. If she wasn't...Read More...

Thanks for replying. I have seen a theraist twice since, she tried to do some Eye movement therapy but whenever it felt like i might be remembering my body would start panicking and make me really uncomfortable. I haven't been back since, mostly because on a medical leave right now from law school and dont have insurance. That experience I talked about was very, very intense, like nothing I have ever felt before. I am really glad it happened its just now I have all these follow up questions.Read More...

Seen that link of yours before - it's very cool!Read More...

CD – oh yeah LOL. I like him in any movie (Grease, Look Who’s Talking 1, 2 & 3, Face/Off, etc.) The General’s Daughter was extremely triggering for me though. I even watched Battlefield Earth just because he was in it. The scene in Michael that you mentioned always makes me cry because it’s so sweet. In all his interviews JT seems sooooo nice!! I just love him. B2W – You have almost the same taste in animals and music that I do!!! Cat – I used to want to be a DJ too when I was younger...Read More...

Love you dearest Draggles. I'm so glad you survived that terrible time with Faith, and everything that came before it - though so sad you had to go through it at all. I really want to say that I am 1000% sure that Faith's vicarious trauma was not a result of any badness in you. Nor was it something you could have prevented or changed. This site on vicarious trauma for care workers makes some excellent points: Vicarious Trauma Some helpful things from that site: "Vicarious trauma is a process...Read More...

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If anyone does find out that the IP address is connected to Mudd, would you let us know? There have been a lot of new people here lately. I'm more cautious to reach out than usual because of what happened with Mudd.Read More...

1. Firm definitely! 2. One good posture support pillow to sleep on and a couple to cuddle up with 3. I can, I don't mind it but I prefer to sleep in the dark quiet with the rain pouring on the roof 4. My son's hair, my husbands embrace; vanilla scent 5. gray or navy 6. Not a big perfume person but I like Angel 7. Can I say mountains by the ocean? 8. Lego, reading, swing rides, Sound of Music 9. The closest I got was Mary Poppins, fairytales were banned in our house 10. Inspector GadgetRead More...

Hey Lizzie, I kind of do what catalyst does, getting out and being physical. Sweating and breathing hard relieves many things. Do you have a pet? I find that helps also. I have a little pup and she has literally saved me these last couple of years. Didn't want her at first but she really was supposed to be in my life. I hope you can find some relief from the loneliness.Read More...

Draggsies, you are the best!!!! Even I missed that!!!!Read More...