Hi everyone, Like Hollow, I'm not "new" here but only became a member this past June. I originally went to addictions counselling from 2008 to Mar 2010 and was then referred to my current therapist who specializes in childhood trauma and sexual abuse, addiction, family of origin issues, etc.. She's trained in attachment theory and EMDR, among other modalities. I decided to quit drinking (heavily) after 25 years of pure hell. I did it cold-turkey at 6:00 pm on December 18th, 2008...an early...Read More...

Yaku, you have already done a great job with your daughter. I think it's good she is not so compliant. Might be difficult at times but I think girls especially should have a mind of their own. She sounds sweet and wonderful and sounds like a lucky girl indeed who has a mom who pays so much attention and who loves her. Good on you.Read More...

Thanks, people, for sharing your thoughts. It was seriously interesting to me to read that other people have felt the same way. I agree that mildness all round is ideal. I don’t *think* I was being too hard on myself, more just recognizing that cloudiness of vision is sometimes unavoidable but sometimes partially due to inattentiveness. I don’t really like myself or my writing when it’s from the latter, and uh, I guess I wanted to announce that in case it had ever bothered anyone else.Read More...

((About)) Thank you for being so honest, I hope if /when you do come back you feel a little more as though you belong. It's hard to feel out of the fray... Being part of communities (any) can bring good material to bring up in T, also! Hope whatever time you are gone, be it days or forever that you are taken through your journey gently. RT & MH: That line is from a song by Sia (an artist I love) and a song Breathe Me if anyone wants to hear it and see the very very awesome video - I had...Read More...

I am also very late, but want to add my support to the pile. Yes, we here very much understand the attachment side of things and the deep pain that is endured when you lose a T. I am finding it does lessen in intensity gradually with time, though that is not much comfort when you feel you can't endure it a minute longer. Please try to hold on one day (or one hour) at a time, believing there are better days ahead.Read More...

Yaku - Your post wasn't negative, it helped. I'm not sure if I could do once a week or not because... I've actually never (Excepting a 2 month period when I started) had therapy less than 2x a week - it's usually 3 between my two T's and has been four-ish the past 3 months or so, and 5 the last two weeks... but my sessions are just normal length. I'm not sure if it's dependency or consistency, or both. When we're doing hard work it's extremely hard for me to keep the relationship. It gets...Read More...

((GE)) hearing you... I'm so sorry you are stuck... I don't have near the responsibilities you do, but I live alone... so I do know what it is like in a way to have no support with anything (no one to help cook, clean, pick you up when you lay down and give up for a bit, etc). It will and can change... it just takes such a dreadful long time. I'm sorry you're feeling defective and unloveable I don't find that true about you at all.Read More...

Lovely to see you kashley, ditto the above, come back as and when you want and need toRead More...

I read this quote in one of the books on my reading list for the first year of therapist training – which starts the day after tomorrow, I’m getting SO nervous! I really love it because it says it all, for the client as well as the T. Thank you for reminding it to me!Read More...

Thanks for the fellow rants, gals. It made me feel better too, to read them! ((mallard)) ((finding.ainsley)) ((b2w)) I might need to have a talk with the little cuz. . .Read More...

I feel the same Quell. Once my T said, to reassure me "of course I sometimes think about you outside of the sessions" and... it was bugging me because, I actually don't want to (I want her not to think about me outside of the room and my hour) and it bugged me that it was what she thought I wanted to hear. No. I want to know I will be allowed to come back and she will still be there for me, and be efficient. But I do not want anything else. It freaks me out, because I have boundary issues,...Read More...

I emailed T twice about it- one was an emotional reaction, but mixed with some rational thought and words and the 2nd one was more thoughtful, calm but still emotional. T emailed back and apologised and said she hadn't thought it through and that now I had brought it up - she wasn't happy her details were there. At our session we discussed it and T reiterated that she didn't want her details there. I explained how this is all about my mental safety and i told her the things I do, assess,...Read More...

Muff!! Where did you go? What happened that you want to rescind your account?Read More...

(((DRAGGERS))) Maybe I'll try that!Read More...

((RT)) Hope all is wellRead More...

((AG)) No problem! Please feel free to use any as you like, I love knowing they are helpful and meaningful to others I will put more up as I remember or find them, I've been a collector for some time AHRead More...

lol I hope your friend finds what he or she is looking for.Read More...

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(((Pingles))) (((Draggers))) Thank you. The doc did mention it might make me sleepy and to make sure I took it before bedtime. Thank you Draggers; I'll watch out for that side effect. I've had that happen a few times, but never on the NHS beforeRead More...

Thanks BLT! The website looked cool, next time I'm on my phone I'll give it a download. The DBT one I'm avoiding, for now.Read More...

Thanks Hollow!Read More...

RT Monday hugs for our fav muppet, AV from the pingles xRead More...

I use firefox on a Macbook and followed your directions. It worked - yeah! I'm constantly clearing my history, for fear my computer will die (which has happened) and I'll have to turn it over to a technician who could then see my history... Thank you very much!Read More...

Took me a while to get around to this thread. Almost all of my childhood stuff that was important to me was at my grandmas and ended up getting thrown away by my mom after she died. My hand-painted horses, she gave to my little sisters when they were two small to play with them and they broke the legs off of half of them, but I still have the whole bunch, which I got back somehow after college. I also have one stuffed kitty cat. When I looked through some old photo albums, I was surprised to...Read More...

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