((GE)) I'm glad you feel you are getting somewhere with it despite how hard it is!! thinking of you.Read More...

thanks, mallard - that's helpful. -RTRead More...

Yes, Cheryl is great! A couple of my friends used her "Gandhi/Buddha" song in their wedding. I also like "If it were up to me" (also sung by Holly Near)Read More...

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Wow... so glad you all like it. R2G... I've been listening to Roar as well. Seems lately there is a lot of girl empowering music out there with most of Katy's songs, Adele's Rumor Has It, and now Brave. If you look at the charts and the music award shows most of the star performers are women (like them or not) there is Pink, Lady Gaga, Rhianna, Beyoncé, Celine, Katy, Taylor Swift, Adele and of course Madonna. I'm sure I forgot some but it's great to see. TNRead More...

The Court's decision is so very reassuring! Good to hear the homefront is better and very good to see you posting again ((MH)).Read More...

((RT)) I'm so sorry, sigh... I'm not sure if I have any suggestions, just support My #1 when I think about leaving a T is that they have all this info... and the exhaustion of starting again. But... sometimes new starts lead to wonderful things. I'm sorry you are limited by your insurance (know what that is like!). Maybe you needed more time w/ xT to coordinate termination, so it didn't/doesn't feel so painful, but, I don't think a termination goes without grief and pain - even the most well...Read More...

Thank you all for your lovely comments. I started crying over such comforting words which means I have a lot to let out. Indeed I have huge abandonment issues. Sometimes I wonder how many other people have it this bad. When I first started dating my partner it was hard to deal with saying goodbye to her even though I knew I would see her again. As time has gone by and my feelings have got so much deeper, leaving her has become more difficult to the point where I numb out during my stay so as...Read More...

Today is my brothers birthday, he was killed in a motorbike accident 15 years ago.Read More...

She's beautiful! Luckily, I don't live anywhere remotely close to you otherwise I might come over to your house and never leave. Of course, I'd have to bring my kid and cats too...Read More...

oh,yeah ((((Draggers)))) it does, too matter. i saw what you wrote, too, but couldn't respond cuz i was at work. i have also done that same thing and then was equally hard on myself, but it's not helpful at all to do that. it's okay. sometimes T talks way more than i do! be gentle to you, cuz i like you!Read More...

Oh Cat - I know what you mean. I'm always wondering and afraid of what other peole think. I believe I have to be a step above so no one can ever say anything bad about me. Sick I know. But it is scary when you think people are always judging you. I know that most times they aren't but it doesn't make it any easier.Read More...

Totally understand RT. Don't worry - everyone here is just wonderful!Read More...

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Thanks for posting this, BLT. I like this idea. RabbitEarsRead More...

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Sounds like it might be meds adjustment time, RT. Are you remembering to breath?Read More...

You lot crack me up!!Read More...

Cat, I've primarily worked on DBT with my T so the ultimate goal of my therapy was to work on mindfulness. Volunteering is one method, but certainly not the only or best one. It just important that you find ways to stay engaged in and more aware of the world around you and not get caught up in your own thoughts for too long. Often in the past, like you, just getting out of the house to do anything was work for me. So finding a place where you're comfortable is important. It doesn't need to...Read More...

Lola, Mudd and closed doors, thank you so much for your help. I will be thinking how can I make it happen financially... though difficult. I can bring a date home, my mom would not mind, except that I won't feel comfortable and I know She will feel left out... such is life. I like the Coelho quote and I think, I will need to think outside the box in this case if I want to find a solution here... I am praying that somehow I am inspired to find it soon one way or another.... thanks again for...Read More...

(((muffaletta))) i hope you're not saying what i think you're saying. but if you are, i'll never have a chocolate mint anything without thinking about you. be well and stay well. but i still hope you're not saying what i think you're saying. p.s. the song is nothing less than marvelous and a perfect tribute to your stay here. i'll be looking up ms. madeleine Peyroux and enjoying some of her other stuff. thanks for culturing me.Read More...

Hi all, and thanks again to everyone for being so supportive. I just wanted to update this post as I have been to see my doctor. It was completely uneventful as I chose to go with not raising the issue. His demeanor didn't seem particularly different, just normal. My pdoc is personable enough but very direct, so I'm going with the assumption if he knew it was me 100% and felt it neccessary, he wouldn't hesitate to bring it up. My real email/name wasn't used, so I don't know that he could...Read More...