Muff What a fantastic story! I envy the freedom you had & the many places to go. Sounds like great fun. I always love your stories MudddddRead More...

Hi Kid... this was wonderful to read. TNRead More...

and more than a bit stubborn, i fear. i'm working on it, though. thanks for thinking about me and saving me a piece!Read More...

A little pot of emotional freedom awaits us at the end of the rainbow Blu. Our dream. We will fly!Read More...

I'm battling this too right now BLT. So exhausted and it's not 103 degrees here. Doing anything takes all my energy. We are having houseguests next weekend and I don't know how I'm going to survive that. Doesn't help that I'm feeling detached from T. I hope you feel better. TNRead More...

Hi Kid... I hope you make a small step and venture out this weekend. You may be surprised at how great you feel after you do this. Fresh air and sunshine always help. Let us know how it goes. TNRead More...

glad to hear itRead More...

Monte, this is so true. I also tend to focus and obsess over what I can't get from my T, what is missing and what seems too enormous for him to provide ... and then I don't look at what he does give me... which is something very precious on it's own. It's just that when he says something that maybe mom should have said to me... I struggle to even hear it. I tend to just gloss over what he says without taking it in. T will notice and then go back to it helping me to absorb what he is telling...Read More...

sounding good muff esp if can be titrated with salted caramel eclair and french coffee every 4 hours!Read More...

Yes, it does feel right. It always has.Read More...

When it comes to the need to vent rage, there is very little logic.Read More...

We are not emotionally dependent on our dentist and GP. Therefore, T's rejection ( perceived or real) triggers our repressed anger. "Whenever this happens, I go through the same cycle of anxiety followed by hurt, then a kind of freezing over and indifference to T " That cycle *is* therapy to me.Read More...

Hey Catalyst, I actually enjoy my phone sessions, but then, I was one of those preteens that spent hours everyday jabbering on the phone with my friends, so it's a mode of communication I'm pretty comfortable with. I think in a way phone conversations can be more intimate than talking with someone in person, because their voice is right there in your ear, speaking directly into your brain, as it were. And without all the non-verbal cues, the nuances of the voice are more weighted with...Read More...

Thank you for your answers, it is very helpful and just feels I am not entirely alone on this planet. Cat: thanks. Some part of me agrees with you, but... not everything. Because maybe it teaches me not to be dependent (at all) on people, and that I must not let myself do that... I don't know. Or maybe I am trying to make sense of her non-answer because it is less hurtful. I don't know... Thank you a lot. Jillann: you're very right, and she's probably on holidays. I just wished I knew for...Read More...

Knock yerself out with it GE.Read More...

Loud music does appear to stop thought, until we hear something that will trigger it, and then.. emotion. I shall watch the washing go round, and around, and around~ ugh!Read More...

Thanks Muff. I do appreciate the encouragement anyway. I guess we'll see how it goesRead More...

Now that's a job that appeals AV.Read More...

Hi Kid Hi Li'l One I'm pretty much alone too. It's nice not to have to hide feelings in your own home, but sometimes it gets scary too, hearing your own sobs and nothing else and feeling all alone... I think this is where you two work together, talk to each other, hold each other, and build up a pretty strong friendship, because you're seeing each other through the worst of times... Plus there's all of us here, and somehow just from reading your words, I know you're lovable. I hope you can...Read More...

ain't a bad thing. imagine away!Read More...

Re: Having to reduce therapy prematurely.Read More...

No you haven't Draggers. It was someones bright idea that I should extend my scribes into one long thread, so as to make room for other post's. It's obviously not working.Read More...