yeah? and your brickets are too fricking cool for your trousers! LOL! i know this doesn't make a damn bit of sense, but thanks for the eclairs! you have officially made my day. g'night, mate! p.s. don't eat all the cm ice cream whilst i sleepRead More...

i know for me (sorry for getting personal here (ha!)) whenever i was having really bad cramps i'd whimper to myself that i wanted my mom. she was in the same house, i just couldn't have her, not the way i needed her, anyway. i also remember having the feeling like i just wanted to be home ... even though i was home. maybe this makes no sense to anybody else. just my experience. thanks for sharing this, muff. i don't think it's pathetic at all. just your kid knowing what it needed oh, and...Read More...

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We do tend to be 'givers' rather than takers dont we Kid? It's safer giving than feeling obliged to anyone. I guess we have that need to feel needed still. Taking can make us feel vulnerable, weak and less in control, especially when there is that constant feeling of being rejected. What reward do we *really* want when we give to others? A good connection? A feeling of self worth? That might last for a little while, until there is nothing more than rejection again. And then comes anger,...Read More...

AG - I so hear ya. Whenever I say this, T sometimes says "you're not going to die from these feelings". While that may be true, it sure doesn't feel good while you're feeling them. I hate being this vulnerable and exposed.Read More...

hi elly, i'm glad your T is 'warm' and her being part of the 'object relations' school is great! it sounds like you have picked the best of psychoanalysis but like you say, its all about how you and your T fit. yeah, i try not to think about the money too much. i think of it as an investment which will pay off. puppetRead More...

You've been through such a rough time recently Muff, no wonder your days are mixed up and you're longing for it to be T day at so many levels. Kettle has just boiled btw xxRead More...

We call that snoopin. Tsk, it's too much like workRead More...

hi, Hollow i'm glad to see you back with an update on your session. good for you for writing down what you wanted to discuss. so many times i've had things that i needed to talk about, and didn't. over time it did help to bring in written words to help me get things out. so, it comes down to doing what feels most comfortable for you and getting your needs met. it sounds like he was very responsive in a good way, and i'm glad his presence was strong, we need that in our Ts. you're right ...Read More...

ah blu she'll be right mateRead More...

no problem,,, thanks for your replyRead More...

yes!Read More...

The post office is gonna be happy too GE.Read More...

Nite Blu.Read More...

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(((Hollow))) that might be scary thinking to some, but i'm right there with you! so no, if you feel safe enough to leave your post as is, then do so. it doesn't scare or offend me at all. i like what you said about it feeling more like being trapped and tormented rather than stubborn. i actually wish i could "feel" more while in therapy, but the truth is i seem to "process" more outside of therapy, and frankly that is hell! i want so bad to contact T, but it was usually more that a phone...Read More...

I can't right now, too many things stirring and just don't want to feel anything ...sorry if this sounds cryptic. I actually ended up staying home today under the covers. That's the only place we're feeling safe at the moment. I feel like I want to take a break from everything for awhile, while T is away. I can't handle all these feelings on my own while she's away. I just can't go there. I'm sorry. The KidRead More...

Across the world GE.Read More...

Ta CD. I cant remember a session without at least one good laugh in it. I think it says 'I like you' more than anything else. No CM ice cream left until next shop day. Suffrin here.Read More...

I'm analyzing and reanalyzing my conversation and written response from former T. Why do I do that? I know former T knew I had been drinking, so I believe she was assessing me with some of her questions. The conversation was still pretty great and I did feel a boost in confidence after I left her, so I know it didn't turn out horribly. I looked at the message that she sent back to me and realized that she just picked out three things from bottom to top (bottom, middle, top) of my message and...Read More...

Li'l one, Don't forget that Kid is your friend. She really cares about you. Let her hold you a little bit tonight. And you can tell Kid if there is something special that you want. I bet Kid will try to give it to you. li'l one, there are good grown-ups out here. Not everybody is going to leave you. T is going to come back. I bet she told you that before she left. When she comes back, you can tell her how brave you have been. It's hard, and sometimes you cry, but that's okay. From what I can...Read More...

CUPPA ? Why yeaus, I do declare that will help. Y'all ate all the choc mint ice cream. Ta Blu. Nothing is flowing now. It has all settled into crud at the bottom of the kettle. It needs a under it to wake things up.Read More...

It certainly is. I never did mind an early appt when the bush was alive with sights and sounds like that on video. Bill is very lucky to live in the middle of it all.Read More...