Hi their Frog, how has the weekend been insofar. Cant think off much to say here as my own experience with therapy may not tally with others. The only thing I can say is look at Dr's/Shrinks/Counsellor in the same way as we might look and talk to ordinary people. In other words they are no different than the rest off us. A university education and a title on the door does not mean they have super powers to deal with everthing. In short give them time to help you out with any new revelation...Read More...

Anon, well done for getting through that, it sounds really tough I am so glad that you have the support of your T to get through this but so sad that it is such an ordeal for you and others to have to go through starfishyRead More...

Thanks for the reply TN. My T has never said he didn't like my projecting. My T is not chatty but he does self-disclose and I know a reasonable amount about his life. He is careful to not talk about how he feels about me unless I ask explicitly about something. If I say something like I know this is not necessarily true but I feel like you are frustrated with me or tired of me he often just sits there. When I've asked him later why he didn't respond to that statement he has said he didn't...Read More...

Hello TN, I'm so sorry you've had to deal with yet another crappy day at work. But good for your T for being there for you, at least that is some comfort in all the distress you are experiencing. I'm pitching in again because I see I've left a quote hanging in my previous post, and I know I wanted to talk about that too but obviously quoted and then forgot Comes of talking too much, evidently! This I can relate to very much. So much anger, rage even, at people in positions of power and...Read More...

Thanks for the responses and input, I keep typing out a response, but will respond later. Just wanted to say thanks.Read More...

insomniac here to the rescue. came across a really short explanation http://www.mentalhelp.net/poc/...119&d=1&w=11&e=29099Read More...

So glad you all got a smile out of it I feel blessed to have my T.Read More...

Lamplighter - Thank you so much! I appreciate the info and your post...it made me giggle And I feel better...I will not dismiss...worry no more!!!! lolRead More...

Thanks Liese, heldincompassion,born2write, TN - I was not ok when I typed this out. While I still feel that she could have been more mindful of what she said in her message, I know she didn't mean it the way I interperted it. Yes, she is a good T. A very good one. I know I reacted that way b/c I was so vulnerable just like born2write and TN said. I ended up texting her back (still in my very vulnerable state) - "Its fine. I know you have a life and other patients outside of me. I'm not...Read More...

((((Jane)))) Enjoy the puppy, and I'm so glad you're taking riding lessons. My time around horses was the best time ever.Read More...

LL ~ thank you lots. lol. Typo jane strikes again. I meant to type 2 or 3 times a week.Read More...

Update from today's session. We are down to only one more session. Why am I having a hard time letting go? I was bound and determined today to be ok with ending. During the session I was brave and relaxed. I felt fine, but a little confused too. T talked about us ending as her door is always open and I can come back at any point in the future. In my mind I was thinking that we are ending and I was going to get a referral or start seeing someone new closer to my school (for free). T seemed to...Read More...

(((Draggers))) - Yes! You hit the nail on the head. About it being the "norm" for us. I can still remember so clearly when I first started to realize that what went on in my home didn't go on in all my friends homes. It didn't really dawn on me then that it wasn't normal, I just became more aware of how different I was. I became embarrased, humiliated, and also nervous to ever have someone over to my house. But I still thought it was "normal", you know, for me. Its so weird about the bits...Read More...

I had a good session with T1 on Wednesday even though I felt horrible... it was just how things were able to feel settled in session. At one point I said... 'Why do I feel so nervous and freaked out right now' and she said 'Probably because you're looking at me...' I've been so good at that lately so every time I do that I feel good. I was able to read her a prose thing I wrote and................ let her photocopy it (it was hand written and I ... I dunno) a definite new level of...Read More...

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Hello Starfishy, you might just see me over in Countdown soon at that too I expect clinical psychs are more busy than 'normal' therapists, but I'm seeing this one privately, so she ought to be just as available. It's something that came up next week for her that meant she couldn't see me during that week, but when you've only got a once weekly appointment, missing one appointment means a two week wait. Which suddenly seems like a very long time... Hope things are going well for you (((((...Read More...

thank you for sharing your story nannabee, you wrote so beautifully and openly, it inspires me... to write my own list perhaps... and to consider the possibility of writing my own story. puppetRead More...

I'm sorry that it's taken me a while to respond to people who have posted. Typically, that sense of "this is tough but ok" turned into "this is practically impossible!" as I got through my mother's anniversary and bit of a hiccup (huge understatement) with my T. But I've bounced back a little and was really glad that some of you found my post helpful. Thank you for taking the time to respond. Monte, I agree that anything that takes the pressure off is great. I haven't come across...Read More...

i accually cant text at all in fact i don't have her cell number i was accually thinking about other clients and peeps here lolRead More...

Blanket Girl/ Butterfly - Thank you for your input. I always appreciate others opinions. I decided to delete the post b/c I don't think I articulated what I was trying to say properly. I wrote it out when I was really emotional and tired. But thank youRead More...

Done. Sheesh surveys are hard for me, because I often have multiple inclinations that I am trying to average out, like I trust him very well, but when dissociated anxiety (usually held by particular parts) gets triggered, I feel untrusting/fearful of rejection, invalidation, abandonment, etc. But, even while feeling fearful, I still "know" he is trustworthy. Anyway, it can make things difficult to answer, because my whole nervous system is behaving as if there is a threat even if I am able...Read More...

(((Monte))) I can very much relate to how seeing your T's own human need, even indirectly, can be such a powerful connector. While my T is sick, I feel mostly pretty well-contained and also just deeply connected to him in a way that isn't full of the terror of my own needs. My T asked me the other day for a recipe of the chili I had brought him some leftovers of about a month ago (which he loved) and he made it for himself and others staying at his home. The best I could do was imagine it...Read More...

((((CAT)))) Thanks for explaining. It all makes a lot of sense. Cat, I was thinking that it would trigger me as well having a T take away a privilege like that - even if I wasn't doing some deep processing but, yes, magnified tenfold if I was. Even though a part of me might understand it, there is a part of me that wouldn't. When I am digging into those difficult emotions, I need to feel like the therapist wants to be there with me and go through it with me as opposed to being less involved...Read More...

MMM - I'm so sorry for what you're going through right now. Try to let yourself feel as much as you can without re-traumatizing further or else those buried feelings will keep popping up..mostly at very inopportune times. It seems like things happen all at once or not at all, doesn't it? So sorry.Read More...

kmay - I find therapy is cyclical... so I don't think you'd necessarily be going 'back to the beginning'. If you need more grounding skills your T can help you - I've been in therapy a while and always need help/reminders with grounding skills as things come up. I think it gets easier each time, so... maybe you will find that to be true. Some therapies/therapists use exposure - I see two therapists one is less okay with exposure therapy than the other (because exposure can make my ED worse).Read More...