Echo to what BB said. Such a strong supportive person you are.Read More...

Hi Em, I am going to agree with and support everyone's comments to you above. You were incredibly courageous to face your T after all that she did to you, and I am glad that she owned all of it and apologized. I can totally understand your feelings. My T 'cried' (teared up would be more accurate, but it was close to crying for her, as she is not emotional at all) once during a session where I read her a letter expressing how much hurt I felt over things she had done/not done and she...Read More...

Hi Jones and Helle, Thanks for your comments. Whew...yes, anger is seen as awful and is confounding ....until you recognize its good purpose and tap into it. It gives me phenomenal drive and energy and I know it can fuel awesome creative change. Why shouldn't we be totally pissed off? Why shouldn't we use that inner energy to help ourselves and others as we learn? Most of my anger comes from unmet childhood needs....and I believe there is nothing more powerful than these needs...so the anger...Read More...

Oh, and if any of you are interested in becoming members to this free site here is the link: endthestorm.webs.com Thank you!Read More...

(((incognito))) How incredibly brave of you to go back and talk to your T!! I'm so glad you were able to do that and are feeling somewhat better. AGRead More...

Echo- I just read your reply- we think alike. (That could be very scary for you- as my mind is often a scary place to be. I only bought my T figs and an apple. We didn't discuss it. He ate them. (AG would make a good T as well. Monte- I wont use your name, and what do you mean by stuff?Read More...

Good - well done. Keep at it smiley starfishRead More...

Hi Mic, Sorry to hear that you are suffering. Sometimes therapy is so damn hard, but sticking with it especially through the tough times(as I sit here contemplating taking a break- because it is tough for me too right now). I can also relate to the dependency thing, and the sister thing, and the not wanting to contact your therapist, and the not allowing people to get to know me, but not the anorexic thing. All I can tell you is- overall I am much better at the friend thing and I can feel...Read More...

Thank you all so much for your wonderful responses. I wish I had as much knowledge as all of you. Everything you wrote makes so much sense and helped me really understand why I am feeling so poorly. I have talked to my therapist and explained that I have some important issues that I would like to discuss with her this week. I pray I am strong enough to really tell her how I have been feeling. I have a hard time asking for what I need and find it easier to just let things continue as they are...Read More...

Echo you make perfect sense. It's so hard to walk back in after a long break and feel like you still know him. It's almost like we are strangers again and I have to try to re-establish the trust again in my mind. To try to remember who he is and how he is. Then again, when I'm gone for awhile I play the math game too and I can really feel like if I'm not seeing him he will forget who I am because I'm not important to him. If I'm not there for sessions to remind him that I exist... then I...Read More...

Thanks so much for the replies everyone... for the space and permission to grieve. It's nice to hear that you all don't see me as self absorbed... maybe I'll bring that up with my t. I'm seeing her a second time this week... I told her that I'm sad, this is a very long week and I feel better when I'm with her so I'd like to see her again! How's that for honest? And she said okay! TN- I was pretty close to my own grandmother... she openly favored my brother, but she did actually love me...Read More...

Hey Amazon, I'm so glad I've found this forum, because it has sort of been a way for me to answer (or at least placate myself for a while) the questions I have about therapy, relationships, life... I over-think things a TON, and without individual therapy, I have all of these things floating around in my head, and the pressure gets relieved a little bit by reading through everyone else's posts. I can't really see how such a large group would have been therapeutic except to the exceptionally...Read More...

LL thankyou (((hug))). I write such short replies compared to others, I never feel they are useful. I write heaps in journals though, but guess nobody sees those so can be braver and never tell my T about anthing I have written unless am prepared to show her cos she will always ask to see it and for me to do the reading of it too Thank you all, it helps me to post here to feel a bit braver to share. Am sorry if I can't quite open up completely sometimes though. starfishRead More...

Can I just add my T has suggested (several times now) a crisis line call. I nearly died . It took ages (I'm talking years) to even speak out to her - now am I really going to pour my heart out to a stranger who I can't even see? It's really not for me, think I would end up dicossiated for hours on the end of the phone - very expensive call then!! Now if it was AG hen that's different Maybe AG you could set up a line just for us? starfishRead More...

Hi Everyone I feel so incredibly selfish. I only post here ocassionally and I seem to have no time to read all the courageous posts by other Myshrink members. I just wanted to say 'hi' and that I am thinking of everyone as we continue our journey with therapy. One last thing, just a quick update on where I'm at.... I am still struggling with my Dad. I can't believe I have idolised a man who is so human. I am aching on the inside. I feel so much - but it's feeling in isolation. I can't...Read More...

Hi FOT!!! It's wonderful to hear from you! And thank you for what you said, it really does help to hear from you just how painful it is when they don't hold those boundaries. I am SO happy to hear you're seeing a new P, how incredibly strong and brave of you to continue to pursue your healing. I can't imagine how scary it would feel so I am so very impressed with you're doing it. And I hope he turns out to be every bit as good as my T (I'd say better but I know that would sound unbelievable...Read More...

I think, for me, I also find that reading all of this doesn't necessarily comfort me, but it tides me over for a while so that I can try and stay patient while I try to understand things better. I completely identify with this. I'm really only starting to see the "different" in these past few months. A couple weeks ago, I visited my father, and he went into a totally random rage about something and told me to shut up, and not even 2 minutes later, he was joking, and I was laughing with him.Read More...

Jones hello again Wow your parents are going through the process of sorting themselves out! That is pretty amazing, and it’s great that they are changing for the better - it’s also great that you can say you love them and are proud of them, that says to me that you are able to feel good towards them despite the hurt and damage they did to you. That’s a pretty big deal. For me I’m a bit the opposite - totally unable to access any positive feelings about any of my family, because I’m stuck in...Read More...

Halo, Yuck. Sorry you are feeling so badly. I was on Effexor for about 9 mos then weaned off. The side effects for me were dizziness, nausea similar to motion sickness or morning sickness in pregnancy. Also had brain zaps (don't know how else to describe them, hopefully you know what I'm talking about), and I remember feeling more anger and irritability. The worst of it lasted 2-3 weeks and they were completely gone by around 6 weeks. I did not switch to another med, so not sure how that...Read More...

Thank you all so much for taking the time to offer me support. It REALLY helps. Just to know I am not crazy and alone makes all the difference. I met with my T yesterday and again we talked about how scared I am to be apart from her. She is so understanding and attuned to me and my fears that I in some way feel guilty that I'm such a wreck and she has to be so worried and sad for me. I know that probably sounds weird, but I am the queen of guilt and find ways to be guilty over just about...Read More...

Here is how I learned about God- I think: Matthew 18:10 states, “See that you do not look down on one of these little ones. For I tell you that their angels in heaven always see the face of my Father in heaven.” In the context, “these little ones” could either apply to those who believe in Him (v. 6) or it could refer to the little children (vs. 3-5). This is the key passage regarding guardian angels. There is no doubt that good angels help protect (Daniel 6:20-23; 2 Kings 6:13-17), reveal...Read More...

I too Lamplighter would like info on this, but I am more the opposite. I hate confrontation, especially with the one who is causing the angst. If my T is causing an issue- I end up talking about anything and everything else- eventhough he tells me it is ok if I am angry at him, all he asks is that I be gentle. It is still very hard to talk to the person who is the source of my angry feelings. Kudos to youRead More...

Incognito: If it's normal or not worth talking about then why is it still bothering you? (This is what I would be asking your T.) I certainly think it's worth talking about, even if your T "normalizes" it. Why does it bother you in the first place? Why are you overly sensitive to it? (I know it's the "difficult childhood" and such, but I would want to find out how you can NOT be so sensitive to these things. Does he have any ideas or solutions to help you?) In my opinion, if these things are...Read More...

DH = dear husbandRead More...

Yes i agree- that is beautiful. I read this one- I think somewhere on this site: Learn from yesterday Live for today Hope for a brighter tomorrow At least I think that was it. Be WellRead More...