Aw thanks Kmay for saying such nice things about me . Good to hear you’re keeping the fighting spirit up despite how crap you must be feeling. And the way you describe interviewing and recruiting in your work, yeah that sounds like a good model to follow, it is similar isn’t it, we are after all looking for a T with the right training the right experience the right attitude and most importantly of all, the right fit. Best of luck in the search LLRead More...

Welcome Jside. I'm glad you found us and I hope you feel comfortable enough to keep posting and sharing. Look forward to knowing you better. TNRead More...

Hi: She still has an active account, yes. However; even with an inactive account or a suspended account she could still look at posts as a guest. CTLRead More...

((SD)) understood and I so understand! are we related?Read More...

Thank you LL and B2W. My childhood background was similar to that, B2W. I wish I could write longer, but I have to do my psychotherapy theory homework for class in a couple of minutes. Take Care All!Read More...

Hi Iris, Sounds to me like you don't believe meds are right for you. That's based on your experience with them and how you feel these days. You know yourself best. Medication is a different experience for different people. I have been on prozac and zoloft in the past and my experience was it disconnected me from my feelings and from other people. Id think it was funny that my 5 yo hurt his finger or my ex screamed at me or pushed me. Even though my body was nervous (drug induced) I couldn't...Read More...

Hi suzieq, you are far from alone in this. I am amazed at how many people on this site have been abandoned and lied to by their therapists, myself included. Would it help to talk some more with T about this and mention your thoughts and feelings? I am pretty stubborn (BlLT) and have gone back to my now Edt each time she terminated me, albeit after months or years. Yes there were 3-4 times. I finally am confident its all about her and not my fault. Kind of took awhile since she always said I...Read More...

I see T for 'weekly' sessions, however due to public holidays, T's vacation, their office closure during the winter holidays and T's seminars about 23% of those 'weekly' sessions are not taking place. For me, those interruptions are not beneficial and slow me down / cause me to take steps back. I would benefit from being able to catch up missing sessions but that is not possible due to T's schedule & policies.Read More...

Hello again Suzyq. Good for you for sticking up for yourself and NOT taking care of HER feelings by saying everything is fine with her abandoning you (which it sounds is exactly what she’s doing). Things are not fine and you have every right to feel how bad it all is making you feel . Maybe the best way of working out what it is you need to say to her if you do see her again (and I’m with Cat here, I think you probably should go to see her) is sitting down and thinking about all the things...Read More...

Hello Smiley, like Beebs, I’m interested to know how it went, did you email her again and did she explain to your satisfaction what had happened? I would hope that there was some clear and simple reason for her not sending you the time of your appointment. Hope all is well with you, good to see you around here again ((((((((( Smiley ))))))))) LLRead More...

I know the feeling of expecting someone to know what's in your head. I used to expect it a lot from those I am/was closest to. I think it's cause I always am so good at anticipating others needs, and I pick up on emotions so quickly and easily that I kinda get the "sense" of the situation and can better attune myself to meeting their needs. It's an automatic thing I do, and because of it, I want people to do the same for me. I want people close to me to be able to read my mind, anticipate my...Read More...

I am really happy to be here I am glad somebody can help me. I too think if i keep going i will come out much betterRead More...

(((turtle))) i'm so sorry for your losses, it must be so overwhelming for you right now and i am sorry you feel so alone now when you would need the support and kindness of others. i am also so sorry (and angry) at your T for her 'icy' response! maybe they should just not offer calls if they can't handle it! (sorry, thats a bit of my own stuff here as well...) you don't have to be so alone with all this, please know you can always come here! puppetRead More...

My T remembers a lot, if not everything, which disturbs me really as I sometimes say stuff and think that I wish I hadn't and really want my T to forget it. I first went to this T over a decade ago and so my past file had been destroyed. This made me pleased as i didn't want T to refer back to then. Pretty sure she has forgotten it all. she did say once that she remembered 1 thing from then - ever since then I have been trying to work out what that 1 thing was. I am not going to ask her....Read More...

From the outset of my therapy I had/have strong feelings of sexual attraction / ET towards my T. It was something that I decided to bring up in sessions very early on purely to be honest with her about it. I suppose I was fortunate in that my T and I got on so well from day one that it wasn't that difficult to bring the subject up. Somedays; you are right in that therapy is hard enough without added layers of problems, but sometimes the ET and the attachment IS the problem and it needs to be...Read More...

Hi skylynx, Thanks for your reply and sharing. A lot of what you say hits home for me. I have been feeling down and hurt, as well as angry about it and have been trying to care for that partof me with my mothering self. After all I can do that for my children even when I might not feel up to it. Haven't got the knack of it when it comes to self care though. I'm so glad to hear you are well. Thanks for the encouragement. KDRead More...

Thank You Blu! I really appreciate it. Yes, a bit of a rough patch with Therapy/Therapist right now. Sometimes I find myself shaking my head and saying, 'How the hell did I even survive?' If it wasn't for my records, I don't know if any Therapist would have believed all that the first 18 years of life presented to me. I know that some things are so deeply ingrained in me just for survival that are proving to cause more harm than good. I am trying, I really am. Thank you once again for your...Read More...

(((Scars))) well done for allowing yourself to feel the fear. Having confronted it once and survived, do you think it will be a little easier next time that emotion comes up? Resistance. That's interesting because that's a word that my T has used toward me many times, e.g. "I sense that there is a lot of resistance to that idea" etc. Although I think I was wanting to hide from taking certain actions rather than allowing myself to feel certain emotions.Read More...

I usually try humor first and then change the subject. Sometimes she brings me back and sometimes not. It depends usually. If it's bad, I got quiet and then kind of space out until she asks me where I am.Read More...

Hey TAS, Checking in...have you spoken to T? How are you feeling?Read More...

nannabee, i'm sorry you felt rage too... i'm not sure if i fully know why either, its probably to do with the fact that i desperately need her to care about me (like my mother never did) and 'needing' anything and being helpless drives me up the wall! like you say, fun times thank you for sharing! Lampers, i really do hope you'll get to come back later and do this poll ND, nice to meet you and glad you got the warm fuzzies. puppetRead More...

(((LL))) Yes, I think you hit the nail on the head. One I woke up from the dream, I at first just assumed that it was about jealousy - shame shame - more negative emotions that I have and again, more reason for me to feel bad about it all, even about having the dream. But the more I thought about it, my view of the dream changed as well - just liked my view of what was going on in session in the dream evolved as time went on. Hmmmm, life imitating my dreams? Thanks for the thoughts. It's...Read More...

HIC - Thank you. Yes, I agree with everything you said. Now its just actually getting up the courage to talk to her about it....Read More...

Hey there SD, did you manage to talk to your T about the art therapy? I find it interesting that she suggested art therapy to you, but as something you go off and do on your own. I like the suggestions the others on this thread have given (I also really liked the link to art journalling, gave me some ideas of my own.) Thought I'd chip in because I did a stint with an art therapist once, years ago. We did things like make and play with puppets (obvious candidates to play out theatrically...Read More...

thanks for all your responses. LL,i'm only asking because 1: it does fascinate me and 2: T briefly mentioned it in our last session. i have to say, i fantisize other clients coming in and lying on the couch, er, my couch. i don't know if i could ever have that amount of trust and comfort. i like to think i could, but realistically i don't think i could. my T does interpersonal technique along with psychodynamic and psychoanalytic, so it's not out of the realm of his expertise. frog, i like...Read More...