That is great! Thanks for sharing.Read More...

Very interested in hearing about this book. I just put it on hold at my library, but if anyone has read it, please share! (PM is fine, too, if you don't want to spoil it!)Read More...

Sorry. I didn't need to drag out anything difficult. Thanks for the empathy and information. No, I'm not on meds of any kind. H doesn't want me on them, because he's worried they might increase my bad thoughts. I actually have annihilation fears about meds making me "not me" anymore, so while I considered them when T gave the option, I ended up choosing not to see the Dr.Read More...

wow,1948! (dusting off the article)....that looks like an interesting read. going to read that later tonight. thanks for sharing it, UV!Read More...

That's OK, BB. I've admitted the transference, but I still need to tell my T that I am a dissociative borderline with attachment injuries. Because, obviously my wikipedia searches are on par with his PhD in psychology, right? I think he will probably point out that the labels are not helpful and say something about how God isn't interested in labeling me, but healing me. I feel like I want to scream, "Please, define this horrible experience for me!" For some reason, I feel like a label would...Read More...

I journalled with all of my previous therapists but burnt them all in 2006 (long story and I really regret it as they could truly help me now) when my ex C started holding me in June, the dramatic change in me and my interior awareness was so dramatic that I wrote it out as a story and that is how my blog started. EMDR T asked me in December to write a journal and I resisted but did because she kept asking me to. I now find I write my deepest most secret things in that and really allow...Read More...

Very wise words AG. This is something that I work on with T as well. It's hard and not an instant process, but it is a work in progress.Read More...

Thank you both for the information. One of my ts broached the topic, but I am very against being touched by either of them, so it was concerning.Read More...

That's a good article. I'm somewhere in the middle on this one. I am able to let my T know when I have become frustrated or angry (and even identify to him when it has less to do with him than something going on in my head)...but, not at the moment it happens. I sometimes have angry or sarcastic commentary running in the background while he speaks encouraging words. I guess part of the way I dissociate. But that part of me really isn't interested in communicating with T, so it doesn't react...Read More...

Here is a similar article by the same author. My T bases her methods on this as well. http://www.trauma-pages.com/a/nijenhuis-2004.phpRead More...

Thanks for this information.Read More...

Hey UV, I too have had late onset of symptoms, although things for me were probably unresolved all along. I think the stress of life wears us down as we age. But good news is brains plasticity!!! Thank god!!! And that god we live in a time when more and more practioners know about the brains plasticity!! It takes me longer now to get things but I feel those neurons growing on occasion.Read More...

SG, Awesome article and it very much described what happened in my marital therapy. Thanks for posting that. And may I join Jones in saying I've missed you? Nice to see you around the place! AGRead More...

DF, Thanks for the excellent advice. I am actually hoping to do something adventurous this year. I love the idea of the zip line thing. A friend of mine is currently in Laos where he's staying at a place where you stay in a treehouse like 50 feet above the jungle and zip line all over the place. I'd love to do something like that. Jones, This is so, so true. It IS like a Kafka story, or like some feedback loop that I'm perpetuating myself without really being aware of it. I used to meditate,...Read More...

uv, as always, good stuff. very interesting. i copied several passages and pasted to an email i am going to send my t prior to each session, the day before, she invited this, not that she really reads it then, but, i think, as to get it off of my chest so i can sleep well. this empathy is something i struggle with with her, and altho i have not thought of myself as narcissistic, i do identify with alot in this article, namely, the reliance of others to reflect my worth. i think that aspect...Read More...

hi there, thanks for your input. ultra, i think youre right. can you tell me, how you can tell she is not experienced enough? its hard for me to understand it. she always puts it on me. thank you.Read More...

Totally awesome resource, UV. Thanks so much. JRead More...

I asked both my T and my Pdoc about emotional flashbacks. They seemed unfamiliar with the term. I explained to them that I think this is whats happening to me sometimes. I just got a blank look....Shouldn't they know this stuff? They both deal with trauma. Makes me wonder sometimes if we know more than they do. Just get on the internet docs.Read More...

Hi JD I'm so sorry you lost your response...TWICE, no less...I just HATE it when that happens...here, I'll growl with you...grrrrrrrr. Here's a mad face, too. I'm really glad, though, to hear that the Circle of Security diagram and the description of our experience of it was helpful to you! One thing I should say, though...and I really hope this doesn't dampen your enthusiasm, because that isn't my intention at all...but I did just recently end the therapy with the couples T who showed us...Read More...

Mayo I’m so sorry you’re going through this crap because of your T’s text. Just posting to explain that expression - the penny has dropped (referring to a coin operated mechanism that is set in motion once the coin had ‘dropped’ into place) - the equivalent expression being something like, a light bulb going on - an ‘aha’ moment (even if it’s negative). ((( Mayo ))) I’m so sorry it sounds like all sorts of stuff is overwhelming you at the moment - hope you can stay strong until you get to...Read More...

Godgirlwarriorprincess, thank you for registering and welcome to this forum. i appreciate your kind and encouraging words, and will check out that book. sometimes i feel strengthened by my hardships, sometimes they get the best of me, but one thing you remind me of, is that God HAS a purpose for me, even in these childhood years which scarred me so, but, now maybe it is about finding that purpose with my own family and others. and yes, the golden rule is a good fall back thought when you...Read More...