I just wanted to say that I am absoolutely the same - my mother was physically there but emotionally detached and cold - even from small baby. I am wondering if that could count as trauma. I'm not sure. It's defintiely f*cked me right up that is for sure. Anyways, sorry, digressing - this week has been v intense in therapy for me on this exact topic - going for men that somehow remind me of my Mother's lacking in the hope that if they adore me it'll sort out that old, deeply imbedded hurt. It's painful.
xoxoxox you seem so knowledgeable on all this stuff! I have to hope and believe I am doing deep enough therapy to get myself through it and in a position to be attracted to and find a decent man. One step at a time though.
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