hey (((TAS))) the fact that he hasn't kicked you out ... sounds to me like not only does he like and care about you, he believes he can help you. his boundaries are and have been difficult for you, but it sounds like you're starting to understand that he really does care and he really does want to help you. the journey you've been describing all along reminds me of a two-year-old or a teenager pushing their boundaries, trying the see how far they can go before being punished. he hasn't punished you yet, and in fact has communicated that he wants to continue working with you. I think that's super lovely!!! anyway, that's the way i see it. from where i sit, it may not be all comfort and roses, but i do believe you're in excellent hands and always have been. Also, i think the fact that you have been coming here and posting whenever you bump into a wall with your T and don't understand something shows a hell of a lot of strength and commitment, though it may not seem like it. I think you're doing a hell of a job, TAS. i really do!

stay well!