quote:I'm very envious of those who get to work through their transference issues with their Ts. It seems like a very positive experience to me.
OW,
It has been a wonderful positive experience for me. In fact I can say that all of the intense emotions, painful struggles, and humiliating exposure have been worth it. I've said it before and do believe there is another side of transference. Very much like AG's open hill covered meadow.
I also believe that all you've felt for your son's T can still be worked out perhaps with your own T. As you may count it a loss and grieve that loss, your T can help you cope with that loss and still identify where it all fits into your past experiences. It's not a lost cause.
I think you are very strong and courageous in your approach and I am glad that you joined our community.