I have had that talk with my T about wanting to "perform" in therapy. I feel a strong need to "do it right." She just gave me a book to read - Perfect Women (sorry if I am repeating myself) which talks about the need to perform. And, BTW the fact that the book belongs to her, makes me love reading it all the more. Every time I turn a page, I can imagine that she touched the book. Am I cracked or what? I guess it is sort of like having her here with me.
PL