I can soo........ understand that. Ever since I was a little kid, I always have done things myself because I didn't want to ask for help. That would be a weakness, and then someone would have power over me. That is also why I don't show my emotions to anyone. That is why I don't let someone whom I respect, know that they have hurt me. (If I don't like or respect them,I have no problem telling them off!) I couldn't let anyone "get" to me. That would mean that I would have to let down my shield, let someone in, let someone be stronger than me. I can't stand being needy. So I just don't ask. I have a really hard time asking my T for anything, but I know she is trying to get me to ask her. Maybe, little by little.
AG - Thanks for letting me join the "crackpot" club!

PL