Oh Tas.

You tried really hard to do something differently and positively - for that you need a big hug and pat on the back. I could see that you were trying hard.

Your posts always remind me of ME!! You often react or your thinking is similar to mine - sometimes I don't respond (sorry) because they are too close to my pain.

I get your pain as I have been disappointed like this with my T so many times. She can be really ditzy, forgetful and it hurts a lot when she lets me down. I have learnt to ALWAYS have plan B. I often take copies of things to sessions of what I have sent to make sure she reads them as she doesn't tell me when she has read something.

I have learnt to reduce the opportunity for disappointment by doing things like this. I look forward and anticipate and ask myself - what will happen if she hasn't read it, how important is it to me etc etc. If it is something critical I make sure I take a copy.

Often she has just simply forgotten, often she didn't know how important it was, often there is a computer glitch - etc etc.

You have to keep trying TAS. I have learnt this the hard way this week with a huge rupture (yet again) with my T. After terminating her (my most serious and honest ever) I received a lot of advice, thought deeply about things and asked her directly for her help. I did something differently. My T always drums it into me that I need to act differently in situations - if I keep doing the same thing, I am just going to be doing the same thing, react the same way and repeat the past. You did something different.

SD