I would definitely email, especially because she said you could. Give yourself permission to do this - your T has already given you permission.

Email. Definitely.

You don't have to go into 100% detail how bad it is, but be honest and say you are having a tough time.

If you need a reply to help with the connection say "It would really help me with the connection to know that you are there, if you are able to reply - that would help me".

or if you don't need a reply - say so and say that you are writing things out and don't need a reply.

The deal with the backup caseworkers - is my greatest fear. Last year my t was overseas for 4 weeks and we had plans in place - Plan A, then B and then C. Guess what - all 3 failed at the same time. I was in a bad way.

I have learnt that if the plans fail then I will go to ANY therapist I can find on THAT day or my GP or someone and ask for help - even just to see them to be contained / supported.

T and I spoke about this this morning. I want her to organise a backup T in case something happens to her or she goes on holidays. She has been resistant, but I am vulnerable at the moment due to lots of triggers and stresses and I need something - a plan. My T is approaching her colleague to ask and set something up "just in case". So we were discussing and planning this just today.

It is a critical issue for me and for people like us.

Email and if you are able persist with seeing someone, - the male caseworker - i too would be hesitant - but is there another one? it is important that we have someone to see.

SD