I am intending to finish with her on Wednesday - by giving her a note thanking her for what help she did give me. I feel like my heart bleeds just thinking about ending, and of course the smallest part of me cannot BELIEVE I am going to end - I would not wish this pain and this despair on anyone. I had a really painful weekend, at a sort of therapy weekend where I was just triggered and eventually just shut down - but had to stay for another day becauseother participants drove me there. I felt so lonely in the group, feeling my own physical hurting and not able to know what to do with it, whilst they just continued with their own processing. It was horrible.