Guys, I just feel so SUPPORTED by you. I found this site JUST at the right time, not realizing what I was about to go through.
I feel amazingly unburdened to have posted what I did on my blog yesterday, an old shame revealed and the world did not collapse.
Of course I am anonymous, but at least two people maybe three, read that and know who I am. gulp!
anyway, I hear you STRM, and you are right, I shall keep reminding myself that I am doing brilliantly. I am actually an amazing woman, I just seem like a bundle of sobbing at the moment but I am not just that, I run a home, I make my family laugh, I cook pancake breakfasts and sing in a choir, play in a band, teach and console friends going through cancer and divorce and ALSO have a chaotic therapy life in which i am emailing about 8 therapists a day to try and find a good one who can help my LostChild heal. At least my life is not boring - ha ha.
Yea, thanks DF - needed that comment. Feel fragile still but also relief to 'come out' with my most hurting shame.
Liese, I like the pinball machine, I feel that I had to move on from that C and only a major storm would have moved me, so major storm we had to have - and now I have left her and will find someone who can handle all this without looking at me as though i am despicable.
It is a blessing in disguise, I know that, it is just hell being IN it right now.
much love and hugs to you all, you are absolutely so supportive and I feel grateful - thank you.