Thanks Heather,

When I move out of the feeling bad about almost everything including my right to breathe, I see the other side to living that is so much more positive. Once I got going today after talking to a couple of friends, I felt better.
I have been trying to do a few more things towards moving, started to pack and get rid of stuff etc.

My boss called this afternoon asking when I was coming back to work! I didn't have to pick up the phone even though I thought it might be her...just wanted to get it over with. She didn't know yet that my leave is "indefinite" so I told her and I think she was shocked.
It was a business type call, nothing friendly......I told her I"m depleted, not really sick. She said "burnout" part way through the conversation and she's right. I am saturated and so tired.
I am slowly getting details put in place up so that I can survive beyond this town and job.

My P did not call today or yesterday. I am kinda sad (not really hurt) when I stop and think about it. But I know she is being careful about giving too much when I AM able to handle it. We talked about boundaries already and she said she'd be careful due to my past neg experiences with therapists and boundaries. So I am kinda glad and I feel safe with that. I'll be glad to talk to her about this next week.

I think you are exactly right when you say this therapy and living stuff is just darn hard and we all have our own schedule for getting better. Thanks for your reply....this board is helpful especially since it can be pretty lonely when others around you don't really understand emotion dysregulation and the therapy process. Hope your day and wknd turn out great.

Karie