Well I just couldn't take it any longer so I called T today to see if she had room in her schedule to see me this week. Guess what she had room today didn't expect that. Wish I would have brought a copy of the letter with me, but I didn't.
I did however manage to her how I was feeling, and how I have sabotaged myself and shut down because of the feelings. She asked me what I expected that she was going to do, and I told her I figured she would tell me we couldn't work together and we were done. We got into some deeper theories on why I was feeling the way I was feeling and where it was all coming from.
She reassured me that she would have not just let me, and that we would work through anything that came up. She asked me why I brought this up and I told her that I thought we had a good working relationship and I was not being fair to her or to myself.
All and all, I was glad I went. I feel reassured that I will be able to talk about anything, and that she really does care about me. She said she knew how hard it was for me to talk to her about this and that she was proud of me.
Yes therapy does work
Kats