I have @ different times gone to therapy twice a week and even two hour sessions as I was working through multiple trauma issues. I certainly feel that I would benefit by going twice a week right now, especially since I seem to have the hardest time and issues surfacing the day after my session. But my insurance has run out for the year and it is all out of pocket until the new year.
I have found myself in a place where my realtionship w/ my T has become more profund than ever. We had discussed termination a few months ago when we completed the "trauma phase" but after an intense grieving on my part she told me that it is my choice that if I am not ready I don't have to terminate. That eliminated a lot of the grief, but I am still in a heavy depression. I have some fine tuning as I call it to be done in working out current realtionship and past maternal issues, and my relationship w/ my T seems to be working great for that. However, there seems to be something I am holding on to that is preventing me from coming out of my box (or comfort zone) so to speak.
Thanks for listening. I really do need that right now. I feel that I am too much of a burden on my friends. Though they tell me that's not true & that is just my projecting that, I still tend to isolate myself. I am glad I found this forum. I give a lot of credit to Shrinklady for taking the time to set this up and even responding to posts despite her professional schedule. I appreciate the understanding from others who suffer similar to me. (I am not alone)
