quote:As if I am afraid to be happy or afraid to not be miserable as I had become accustomed to
I think sometimes when we change our behaviours, we also are afraid of them. It is more comfortable to behave as one is used to. And it can be a scary feeling to change... any type of change! It's not 'sabotaging' (sp?) exactly, at least I don't think so. Have you ever seen a baby learn to walk? Sometimes they just get fed up with it all and crawl again for a while... until they realize they can try again, and that's it IS worth all the effort (and pain).
Antoni
p.s. does USA have Labour Day as a holiday?