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One of the most difficult things for me to deal with is when my Ts care and concern and liking for me are so evident that even I am not capable of denying it. Scares me to the bottom of my socks.

This is so true for me too! What is this all about? This is something that my carefree husband cannot even begin to understand. I truly envy his ability to ask for and get what he needs or wants and be totally casual about it.

This also relates to what happened with the whole email/calling thing I mentioned in a post here yesterday. So, I did finally call my T yesterday and left a vm asking her to read the email I sent Friday and that I would talk to her Mon (our next session.) So for the rest of the day I am occasionally checking my email to see if she has responded (yes, only occasionally - I was surprisingly not obsessive about this.) Well, around 8pm my cell phone rings and I instantly know that it is her because only two other people ever call my cell and one was home with me. My first thought was "Shit I sent a email so that she wouldn't have to call me." I didn't get to my cell before it went to vm however, and so then I thought, "OK that works. I'll just listen to the message. No prob." Before I can check the msg however my home phone rings and so I have to admit to myself that her persistence warrants me answering the phone, which I did of course. It was very, very nice of her to call on a Saturday night just to connect and reassure me. In the end I did really appreciate it. It certainly made me feel so much better. Like a lot of our T's, she has been encouraging me to call when I need to & knows about my reluctance to do so. I think a little part of her calling me last night even when I didn't ask her to was to prove to me that it is OK TO CALL. I AM NOT BUGGING HER. I hope it sinks in this time.