I think its awesome that your T was so persistent in contacting you, but its even better that you don't feel like you're bugging her. I actually find myself needing to get in contact less because I'm so sure it's ok too.
As far as the scared down to my socks, I think its the fear of finally having something to lose. I talked to my T a few sessions ago of feeling like where I ended up emotionally when it all got to be to much to handle as a kid, was a vast flat gray plane that stretched on forever in each direction, I'm completely alone and there is no other sign of life, no color, not even a breeze. There's also no emotion, I'm so far past despair that I'm resigned to feeling nothing. I know it sounds horrible but there was no hope so there was nothing further to lose, so that felt like there was no way to be hurt any further. And that felt like the best I could do.
When I feel loved, I feel the return of hope, that I can leave the gray plane behind, that finally I won't be alone. But that gives me something to lose, and based on my past experience, I WILL lost it. Its too good to be true. So instead of being able to enjoy being cared for, I just get scared about how hurt I'm going to be again. What I'm slowly learning is that all that isn't true. That I can trust my T, that its not such an impossible thought that someone would love me, or think highly of me, and although I'll experience some pain, that I can also know joy. Its taking a lot of time, but I think I'll get there eventually (if I live to 150.
) Does drive me a little crazy though, I'd really just like to relax and enjoy it, especially because my T is really good at conveying his care and steadfastness.
AG