Thanks for the feedback. AG, I have read some of these things and not others. I devour this kind of material these days so I appreciate it.
It does not matter what I do...she is always on my mind in some fashion. I gather that I get about 90 minutes per day (not consecutive) where my focus is really required that she is not powerfully present for me. It is awful.
Worst of all, she has no interest in anything further with me beyond being my therapist. It feels so unfair, excruciatingly painful, and debilitating.
Thanks for being on the forum and replying.
S