I was able to work things out with my T this morning (surprise!).
She was much more receptive and attuned to me today. Obviously because it was my session and she COULD be. She explained that she could not be completely attuned to me yesterday due to her circumstances. But she also admitted that she could have been warmer in her approach. Then she said “I really WANT you to know from previous experience with me, that I am usually a very warm person. I want you to really know that and take that with you so that you can draw on that. Because my fallibility will dictate that I will screw up again. I don’t want to, but I will.”
She also looked deeply into my eyes and said “There is NOTHING you can ever do to make me stop seeing you. You can fire me, but I will never terminate our relationship because I don’t feel I can handle you anymore. That will NEVER happen.”
So the whole “I don’t care what you are doing” was her sense of humor (remember I love that about her) brought on by my humorous question “WHAT am I doing?” She laughed and said those ill conceived words that brought my world to a stand still-temporarily. Me, hyper-vigilant? Never!
Thanks again everyone for you support. It saved me from going completely daffy!
