Hi Pippi... I'm so sorry you are suffering with this. In my opinion you could be dealing with feelings of abandonment by this T and that could be triggering things from your past. Of course, I don't know anything about your past or why you are in therapy but it may be worth looking at with your P. And yes, you could also be feeling "OMG, what if my P does this too?" That is a perfectly normal reaction. All of this is very valid to either bring up with your P and/or this T. Another thought would be that you developed an unknowing attachment to your daughter's T and are now feeling scared at trying to deal with this without her being there for both of you. Losing an attachment figure is not easy to deal with. My young son was seeing a T that I started feeling very attached to and I ended up seeing him on my own for individual therapy and have a very strong attachment/transference for him.

You are evidently in considerable pain if you are thinking about cutting. Please don't... call your P or the T and talk to them and come here to vent as well. And know that you are strong enough to get through this.

TN